the little awkward steps

MOVED

2011-04-16T14:08:00.002+07:00

http://simplytumblingalong.blogspot.com/

I actually make a decent link name.

2011-04-16T12:12:00.000+07:00

Did I ever say I was gonna post loads of stuffs as soon as I arrive in Japan? No, I must have not.

DANG.

The downs:
I have to wake up early every day.
I have to WALK almost every time.
IT'S SO HARD TO DAMN APPLY FOR SOMETHING. Internet needs you to have a bank account and wait for a week for a modem to arrive. Cellphone needs you to have a guarantor if you're under 20 and contracts and dang expensive costs.
The distance of the school to my dorm is like... ugh...
I can't sleep on the way to and back from school or on transportations just because I don't wanna miss my stop. I MISS CARS AND DRIVERS. T_T

The ups:
I can actually wake up early!
I finally do exercise (read: walking)!
I have uber nice seniors here. The one in my dorm even stop locking her door when she goes out just so that I can use the internet in her room. There goes my plan of even subscribing the internet in my room.
I AM USING TRAINS. ISN'T THAT AWESOME?! I'VE BEEN WANTING TO USE ONNNEEEEE! KYAAAAA!
Nice new friends!
Super fast, seriously, internet.
Great food!
I have a beautiful park view from my dorm room.
I BOUGHT A SUPER ULTRA CUTE TAKO DOLL! KYAAA!

Okay, I suck. I can't think of more things to say.

Anyway, point is, I enjoy it here. There's just something missing.

You see, I should have been feeling very excited when I arrived in Japan. I don't know, like, super excited feeling or just... something, but. None. Seriously. It feels... "Okay, fine, I'm in Japan now, so what?" WHICH SUCKS. I mean, I just don't feel aliveeeeeeee! Uh.

BUT, I do am happy whenever I pass this street with lots of clothes shops and THEY ARE ALL SO BEAUTIFUL! *blush* And when in the train or on the street and the girls here, they dress and do make ups and they are all gorgeous. Then I can wear anything I want here and no one would care. Back in Indonesia, I got stares when I wear the things I like (which are, I know, mostly weird). Bah. BUT NOW I DON'T! Good thing the people here are kinda ignorant.

The school is really fun too (except during lessons, which bore the hell out of me). The teachers and staffs are so nice. And they really like Indonesian people, because we are known to be really nice and friendly. Hah! B) BUT TOO MANY CHINESE! And they speak in their native tongue and so greatly and I got jealous and kinda regretful that my Chinese doesn't get any good even after studying for... what... eight years? T_T

Oh! During the entrance ceremony, there was these four students who gave speech in Japanese, Chinese, Korean and English. During the Korean part, I was like grinning the whole time because because... I CAN'T HELP IT! I usually only hear Korean in dramas, so when I hear it IRL, it just excites me! I WANT TO LEARN KOREAN!

Last night, while I went out with the seniors again, I tried drinking tiny bit of alcohol! They taste... bad... But when I drank the strawberry milk with 3% of alcohol, IT WAS GOOD. LOL, strawberry milk is good. Ugh, now I wanna drink banana milk.

Err... then I am thinking of making a new blog. So that I can separate things, make it tidier and stuffs. But we'll see about that later.

OH GOD, I CAN'T BELIEVE I DID THAT.

2011-03-31T22:30:00.000+07:00

This morning, we had this orientation / farewell party at the embassy. At first it was boring... too much talking about stuffs I don't get... (or care...) and I just could not wait to STAND UP. Gosh, sitting for three hours listening to something not of your interest is just too boring. At 11.55 (I remember the time because... just... the staff emphasized it), we were FINALLY allowed to go to the toilet, so me and a few friends went to the toilet and came in a tiny wee bit late for the Japan's Ambassador's speech.

I was like, "WOW! YAY! I got to meet someone who is usually seen only on TV!". I know, I am so... lame. Then, I think it was like a few minutes before the break, there was this... photographer who came. And he... was... *breathes in* kinda cute... (although I guess he's way older than me), but but but... the face... HAHAHAHA I can't believe I am grinning while recounting the... event. (Yeah, sometimes I write with a straight face.) Anyway, he's cute... kinda handsome... more like cute... err... okay, you get what I mean.

Anyway, the whole time during the Ambassador's speech, I almost burst out laughing. The accent is soooo Japanese-y and then there was that time when he kinda forgot the word he wanted to say, then ended up repeating the same phrase. Wow, I have to learn how to do that and still no change in the expression. If it were me, I would have flustered. He was good. Well, logically, if he wasn't he wouldn't be an Ambassador...

Then after "the guy"'s speech, there was a representative from the Research students (who all seem so mature...) who gave a very long speech. She... was good... I mean, it's in Japanese and... Wow... I can only understand very little. After her, was my friend, who represented us, and she was good too... I couldn't believe she got all blank and was still able to recover. Seriously... WOW.

After all the speeches, it was finally eating time! Woo! Damn there wasn't any sushi or Japanese food (as I had imagined), because the farewell ceremonies in other cities had those types of food. So jealous! At first I hurried to the hall to get myself a plate, BECAUSE I WAS SO DAMN HUNGRY, but... some of my friends approached the Ambassador to take pictures, so I did. Hah! Although the picture's in someone's camera *I can't remember who... ._.*, but I took a picture with an important person! I feel important! And that friend of mine who gave speech was praised by the Ambassador! Instant golden child status granted! HAHAHA!

Then I went to take food... then I went back into the hall and ate. THEN THEN THEN, something unexpected happened... That photographer approached my group and somehow ended up interviewing me. In a little bit of Japanese, English and Indonesian, which... I answered with my tiny knowledge of Japanese, more English, even more quietness, then tiny Indonesian. And I was sure, that we both did not understand each other most of the time. So, when he asked me something which I interpreted with a yes-or-no-question, I just "Hai, hai, hai" HAHAHAHA! I have this bad habit of not wanting to look stupid. I just can't help it... ._.

So, after more talking with (mostly) my friends, then suddenly the friend of mine who gave a speech, wanted to take picture with THAT guy. Gosh, it was quite hard. I mean, taking picture with an Ambassador is normal, but with a newspaper's photographer?! Wha? (But I wanted it too... ._.) In the end, before we went home, another friend of mine who was so... confident, asked him to take picture together, then followed by me... then more people... At that time, I was happy. Now? Gosh, I don't know why I did that... SO... lame. But here's the picture:

Yes, it turns out as I expected. Thank you, Photobucket, for making my picture appear super small! He isn't as... saying cute is weird and he's not exactly handsome, so... whatever, as IRL. Bleh, anyway, I LOOK LIKE AN OFFICE WORKER AND IT SUCKS. GOSH. This is exactly why I don't like wearing that skirt, but that skirt is cute... And that blazer(?) is kinda too... fit! Blah... But I love them both... And the sparkle-y top is my Mom's from my Aunt, but Mom has never worn it, and I kinda loved it the first time I saw it, but today was the first time I wore it. Lol, messy sentence.

We then went to hang around in Grand Indonesia, to watch the dancing fountain (one of my friends wanted to watch it so badly, she was all watery in the eyes [I AM QUITE SURE SHE FAKED IT! Very goodly, though.] when she thought we missed the show... We waited an hour for the next one and yeah... that was the first time I saw it. Everyone there was from outside the city and I got teased that I hadn't seen it, nor knowing the way around the mall. ._. (And about me not remembering ever going to Dufan... T_T) IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL! The colors are uh-mah-zing! And the song... There was three different songs, the second song was a mash-up from various "Phantom of the Opera"'s musics & songs AND IT WAS SOOOOOO GOOD. I was so happy when I heard it. Like, I WANNA RE-WATCH, but I hate the ending... It was sad... but happy, but mostly sad...

Today was a happy day (despite the slight embarrassing, okay, not 'slight', more like VERY embarrassing) and it's good that everyone is so nice! But it's kinda sad that me and another friend is departing so soon. OH, GOSH, THREE MORE DAYS. Okay, it's already at night, so only two more days... But the research students we're going with seem so nice, so it's good. Radiation, please hop on elsewhere, thank you.

Departure Date

2011-03-30T00:52:00.000+07:00

Yes, finally, after three months of waiting with absolutely no decisive news (too many "maybe"s), it came today. With bad news... Okay, good news, but bad news... it's the combination of both, I can't decide if it's good or not. So, I will go to Japan (I can't believe I am going to Japan so soon!) on the 3rd of April, at night... like... 9 PM, with only another friend. The other 16 people will go on the 14th. I don't get why... Wow... WHY?! But according to the embassy staff, there should be research studies students who will go with us... BUT STILL. *sigh*

And my Mom got so worried when she found out that only the two of us are going, while the rests' departure date was postponed. This was one of the conversation between us:
Mom: "Ke (moi nickname), are you sure you want to go?"
Me: "Err, well... Not like I can cancel! Or are you gonna let me go study in Swiss?" *puppy eyes*
Mom: "So you wanna go to Swiss? Not to Japan?"
Me: "Well... but I already got the scholarship and it will be such a waste... but I DO WANT TO go to Swiss!"
Mom: "Then go!"
Me: "WHAT?! YOU'LL PAY?!"
Mom: "Wha, sure! Go!" *of course with that usual a tad sarcastic tone*
I am kind of regretting my decision of taking Architecture. I mean, during the drawing classes, I do enjoy all the measuring and the drawing is kind of fun, the process of looking through magazines to find suitable designs is also fun, but I don't know... I just can't see myself surviving in the artsy major... ._. (Although I am looking forward to studying Maths... I sound like a geek, but I do like Maths, as long as I can do it...) I know I can, though, just that... I am never brilliantly good in that department (not that I am brilliantly good in others, but at least, I am above averagely good), so it's... AAAAAAA, dilemma. Anyway, I will survive. I might not be the best, but at least I will be able to pass. Hah! Just wait and see. You're gonna be shocked when you see a beautiful building designed by yours truly.

AFTER THREE YEARS THEN I'M OFF TO SWISS. Or find some way to continue my studies in Japan if in the end I take a liking in the major... Or go elsewhere... I wanna go around the wooorrrlllldddddd! *straying from the topic*

OOOOHHH! BY THE WAY. I found the movies my brother gave me. Apparently it somehow ended up at my computer. All those efforts, I even stayed up to 2 AM in the morning trying to find some way to retrieve the files, which I thought I accidentally deleted them. I should have checked in my computer first. Gosh, I basically woke up with this kind of feeling: "Oh gosh, I lost my precious files... Why? I don't like losing files. Not to mention my Brother isn't in the country, so I can't just ask him to re-transfer them... Why? Why does it have to happen? Why is it empty? WHY IS THE DAMN FOLDER EMPTY?!". Yeah, I got all depressed and stuff. Then when I told my Brother about, he was all "LOL, LOL, LOL"! T_T I asked him where he downloaded the movies and if they were per season, his answer basically shocked me. Not the where part, he still downloads from the same site which he told me before, but he downloaded them PER EPISODE. There were SO MANY FREAKING EPISODES. Even if I have the super fast internet speed of Japan, but downloading one by one is just too depressing. I was so... sad... and stuffs... Then I went to my computer to scan my JLPT certificate, tried checking my folder with no high expectation AND IT WAS THERE. I WAS SO ECSTATIC THAT I SHOUTED... loud. HAHAHAHAHA! Then I moved it to my new external hard disk. Then then then... when I checked this site, A NEW CHAPTER OF STROBE EDGE has been scanlated. Then I read it then Ren in that chapter was basically so... aww-ing, THAT WAS SUCH A SWEET CHAPTER! (I am using way too many caps!) Yeah, look at my Twitter statuses this morning and it is so clear how... insane I was. But this morning was a happy morning.

Random Updates + PICTURES!

2011-03-29T00:06:00.000+07:00

I DON'T GET WHY I AM SO BUSY! NOR WHAT I AM BUSY WITH...

These have to be the cutest pics EVER:

A few days ago, I was rearranging my dolls (because they were oh-so-messy), when I found the above position. I have to admit, I hadn't been seeing Sticky nor realizing that he's missing... BUT, Pingu's face has always been the kinda mean face look and it fits so perfectly with the scene! HAHA! :D Anyway, my first reaction was: "OMG! Is that what I think it is?!" And yeah, it was what I thought it was...

My current working table's (the table I use to do homework and other stuffs) condition:

Hah! I don't even want to imagine how my future desk is gonna be in Japan. Those magazines are the ones I look into when I need to find some model furnitures for my drawing classes. Talking about drawing classes, both of them have only ONE meeting left, so YAYYYY! :D (The other one has two more, but whatever, I don't go anymore after two meetings, too lazy.) I am so happy. I'm starting to get bored with all the drawings I have to do! When I have time, I'll scan the better drawings of mine! The pictures were taken after I finished with my homework in the middle of the night. I promise it's not usually that much of a mess! I even had to store my laptop in its bag that time... ._. Damn projects. Ugh...

My Sis being all wanting-to-take-pictures in the car during our trip back to the city after having to go to Bogor to pray for my deceased grandpa (and was the first time we ever stay awake during the trip, usually we fall asleep):

And those are my eyes. ~~Aren't they pretty?~~ Of course, they are, I don't have to ask. *narcissistic*

As soon as we reached Jakarta, my Dad directly drove me to the meeting place with my fellow friends to practice for these performances we have to do during the "farewell ceremony" in the embassy. We are going to sing the famous opening theme song of Doraemon and Tanah Air Beta or Tanah Air or whatever the name of the song is... and blah. Why do I have to singgggg??? T_T

Anyway, I am currently trying to search for the movies my brother gave me during the last time he came back. I can't find them in the folder where they are supposed to be! AAA, and I just found the batch of songs he gave me in the "Videos" folder, dumb me. WHERE ARE THE MOVIES?! I just downloaded this program for recovering deleted data, so hopefully I can find it. Please let me find it. I want to watch that "How I Met Your Mother" AAAAAAAAAA! LET ME FIND IT. T_T

2011-03-21T00:38:00.000+07:00

OH NO, THE PREVIOUS POST WAS MY 300TH POST! SO, YAY! :D

This evening when I went out to eat with my parents, something... happened.

We decided to eat at this roadside... err... camp..? Tent? Something like that... We got off the car and apparently there were three... she-man? Err... you know, guys who dress like women (I'll use she-man from this point). One of them had walked ahead, another one went to the tent and turned on some music then started doing a little dancing, which resulted in the owner to give the she-man B some money then another one was walking behind my car while my Mom asked my Dad to reopen the car's doors. At first, she-man C walked on by, but when my Mom was walking towards the car door and I turned around to look at my Mom, she-man C noticed me, looked at me for a bit, then suddenly, and shockingly, said, "Hey, long time no see! Where have you been?". Initially, I ignored she-man C, BUT. When my Mom was opening the car door, I noticed a presence near me and when I turned around to look, she-man C was right beside me. I was so freaking scared, seriously. I ran (okay, walked super fast) to the car door which my Mom almost closed (good thing she hadn't) and went inside then closed the door. GOSH, both my parents didn't notice that I was being... bullied by bad she-man C! That was shocking! o_o

I should have continued my Aikido lessons... Seriously. Maybe I should hire a bodyguard in Japan... or something... *maximized exaggeration*

Lately, my sister has been having a hard time sleeping because of her intense cough. Her fault, though. Knowing that her throat is very sensitive, she still eats those ice creams, nuts, snacks and stuffs. And now it's 0.21 in the morning and she's right behind me... doing something...

This site translates the Strobe Edge manga super fast! (Well, not the site, the... person... whatever...) Have I mentioned how good that manga is? Have I have I? Well, it is so awesomely good that... I was basically so excited when I found out how ahead that site was from SH (Starry Heaven) scans! Although talking about the quality, SH's is better, but it's not like that site's not good. Still quite good. Can be zoomed twice and it's still showing just fine! (: Seriously, read the manga! READ IT! I almost bought the Japanese version at Kinokuniya, but my Mom found out that it had volumes, so... ugh... ._.

I bought a new external hard disk! Woo! Another 500GB, but this time, I bought Seagate's.

So, I should sleep. I slept at 3 am yesterday, woke up at 8.30, got some sleep during journeys in the car, and now I am still awake. I pity my body.

Japanese Language Proficiency Test (JLPT)

2011-03-18T00:54:00.000+07:00

The thing in my previous post made me completely forgot about this good news I want to share (which can be guessed easily by reading the title...).

Remember how last year, I attend the JLPT N4? I was willing to let it go even if I didn't pass the test, which chance was very high, remembering how I can't do most of the grammar questions.

Apparently, I did pass! Woo! I am so happy! Even though I am only 7 marks above the passing grade, but hey! I passed!

My teacher was the one who went to the university (where I took the test) and took the result. She gave it to me this afternoon during our class. It was an envelope, with three pieces of paper, one of them was very small, like half the A4 size, which was the score paper. One was the certificate, which didn't have the marks on it (yay!) and the other one was an explanation paper about the scoring, which was new, because starting from last year, they had a new system.

Here are some shots!

English Class (Ranting Alert)

2011-03-17T21:39:00.001+07:00

I usually love these Thursday's English classes. I really do. Seriously. I arrived as usual, I was a happy person, until someone so... yeah, the first time I ~~saw~~ heard him speak, this this-person-is-so-hateful-keep-your-distance sensor in my head started tingling and I only HEARD him. I usually judge the book based on its COVER, not by how the pages rustles, or whatever the word is, but... he is an exception.

He sounds... boastful. Well, I get jealous by those people who are boastful because they have THE knowledge (mostly don't or just have a tiny bit of it, some do, though), but I HATE, let me repeat that H-A-T-E, those who boast but fail. In a pathetic way. Oh, that is NOT the only reason I hate... well, I can say despise, that is too strong of a word, though... um... okay, fine, strongly dislike him. (I might have to change all the "hate"s above to dislike because hate is such a... hateful word.)

We were given chances to talk about something in present continuous tense and the whole class basically didn't succeed. I got one chance (because I was late, I think there were two more people who only got a chance too), but I made a mistake, so I got stopped, fair enough. I almost got the point, though, like 80%, okay, 60%, but it had yet to be 100%, thus I still hadn't got it. There was two more people(?) who spoke before the teacher finally stopped the whole thing and decided to give us an explanation. After he was done, he asked me to speak. Well, I was a bit dumbfounded, but I spoke... and stuttered, those moments when I stopped talking because I just HAD TO contemplate, there were about three others who started getting... WOW, all excited about wanting to talk, that guy, THAT particular guy, just had to say something like this, "SIR, GIVE ME THE CHANCE! SHE CAN'T DO IT! GIVE ME! I WON'T BLOW IT UP!" in a VERY LOUD VOICE. Yeah, (sorry, I just have to swear) fuck you, man. "You are so going to screw up," was what I thought. I kept silent the whole time they were shouting (just because I enjoy acting like an actress on stage, being all quiet unless all the attention is on her, although the difference about me and a real actress [how can an actress be real, really?] is that sometimes I freeze amidst all the attention). I spoke a bit more then because of the different concept in my head and in the teacher's and also because of carelessness, I made a mistake. The teacher then asked THAT guy to speak. HAH! I was already so pissed off at that time. Like, REALLY pissed off.

It's not about the shouting, my friend did that too, but I just fucking hate people (OH, gosh, I swore twice in this post) who eff-ing UNDERESTIMATE me. I may not be THAT good, heck, there are billions of people BETTER than me, but... wow. Being underestimated is just too... hateful. (Which means there's more than 50% chance that I underestimate others a lot, because it is said that hating someone's characteristic usually happens because you have that particular characteristic and you hate yourself for having it... I am so not fit to be a teacher.) And he did. Imagine how angry, more like in a what-the-hell mood, I was. Wow.

And he started speaking... the whole time I was pretty sure he was going to "blow up" and he did. Yes, he did. He, sadly, refused to be said that he made a mistake, and kept on asking "WHAT DID I DO WRONG?" (EVERYTHING, MY FRIEND, YOUR ATTITUDE IS A VERY VERY UTTERLY WRONG THING [Okay, no one said that, I just want to...]) to which my teacher answered, "Later" then pointed his sister to speak. Before pointing another person to speak, that person and my friend started shouting and shouting to get the chance and him asking and asking (such a sore loser), I quietly said, "And you said you weren't going to blow it off.". It would be heard if only everyone was quiet, but everyone wasn't, so I had a doubt it was heard, I was such a coward...

His sister finally got it right.

Anyway, I feel much better. I knew it, having a blog is such a useful thing sometimes.

I STILL HATE HIM, THOUGH. Why is it that he has to be in MY class? I mean, he originated from my sister's class. I was so happy I didn't have to be in the same class with him. I was sure, very very sure, that I was going to dislike him. Oh, good thing I am going to Japan next month. Hah! Goodbye mean, arrogant, boastful person.

And I didn't re-read. I am pretty sure I repeat TONS of words, I'm just not very creative.

Packing Issue Finished

2011-03-16T09:32:00.000+07:00

After consulting with a friend of mine and my cousin and my Mom, I have yet to encounter another problem with my packing. Which is one problem down, for the moment.

My drawing lessons... It has came to the point where I have to draw humans and my drawing sucks, as always. I kinda had to draw this (beautiful) model and... my drawing made her look... scary (I basically couldn't hold my laughter during the class, had to go the toilet and laugh all I wanted), seriously, I made her looked like a monster, like those scrawly drawing of a three year old or five or two or whatever... and a tiny bit fatter. Okay, not a tiny bit... WHY? My current wish would be, please... let my hands draw beautiful objects! And humans... and animals... and whatever I need to draw.

I have basically abandoned my Japanese lessons. And it's bad. My teacher hasn't came in almost the whole week because she had to work for almost the whole day (being an interpreter) and I haven't been reviewing the grammars or the kanji. I am so jealous of my fellow scholarship friends who seem so calm about the whole thing (some of them don't take Japanese lessons). Although I am still calmer about the recent earthquake-and-nuclear-radiation-thing than them. My Mom isn't, though. And my grandma is worried too.

Whatever happen, please please please just POSTPONE the departure date, it would be so... HATEFUL if the scholarship is terminated. And I know I am being selfish because the people there might need the money more than me, but... one year (okay, less that that)... for one year I have been hoping, praying, longing for the scholarship. Not to mention I have been waiting for this moment for like... 5 years. The moment in which I can finally go to Japan. But but but, last night, my Dad kinda asked me, "Worst case scenario, where would you like to go?" My instant answer, "SWISS! SWIIIISSSSSSSSS!" I can dream!

Packing

2011-03-15T14:49:00.000+07:00

Yes, I've started packing and... ugh... am I bringing too many things? Ugh ugh ugh... *dilemma* I think I should start scanning my textbooks and notes to decrease my load. AAAAA, I hate packing. Can't I just have Doraemon's magic door then move all my things that way? T_T

I've got a notification email from the language school I will attend and the sender advised me to pack light. I CANNOT PACK LIGHT, HOW DO YOU PACK LIGHT?! I just have zero experience in packing... It's usually my Mom who packed whenever we were going abroad. ._. *zero independence* I am so doomed. So so doomed. Can't I hire someone to pack for me? *puppy eyes* (So not going to survive alone in Japan...)

Why did I ever decide to go to Japan again? Gosh...

BUT I CAN'T WAIT. I wanna go there... ._. I used Google's street view (which made me sleep at 3 am in the morning) to see the streets from my dorm to the language school and it seems like a very calm (read: deserted) neighborhood. Not to mention 1 hour walking + train time. Oh, I am so going to get slimmer (okay, thinner) there. And I'll need to eat a lot. Talking about eating, I don't think that there's any convenience store nearby (or is there?) which will is super bad, like SUPER bad, because I. CAN'T. COOK. Although recently I have been able to make myself instant noodles (yes, I usually asked the housekeeper to do it for me), so YAY! I am not going to starve there. But instant noodles EVERYDAY? Wow, talk about bad nutrition. And it's bad for the brain(?). Let's say I eat instant noodles once a week (now I want to eat one, ugh...) what about the rest 6 days? T_T Eat... air...? Okay, I don't live alone, there are others who can help me... hopefully. Oh, gosh, just PLEASE help me! D: Calm down, the internet has tons of cooking tutorials, I will survive! *rambling*

Anyway, back to packing... please assign me to a room located at the lowest ground, I mean... less stairs, so that I don't have to spend too much energy taking my baggage to my room. AAA, MOM, WHAT SHOULD I DO?! (So not suited to living alone...)

OH, GOSH.

I Can't Believe It!

2011-03-10T10:10:00.000+07:00

Midnight while I was trying to finish my drawing (which ended up so... ugh-ly), I was browsing allkpop (my habit lately, thanks to Ribka) when I found out this article about Jang Ja Yeon. I think she played Sunny in Boys Before Flowers...? (It keeps on being said on various articles about her at the site that she played a role in BBF, but I could not figure out which, and at some point I saw Sunny's name...) SHOOT. Sunny was like one of my favorite characters. That "ckckck" with finger waving thing, it was so amazingly haughty that I love it so so much! First time reading the above mentioned article, I was so confused as to what 'host' meant. After I found out... GOSH. Holy cow. Then a while longer I just realized the suicide happened two years ago. :x *I'm always so outdated sometimes...*

I don't understand why those... guys would do those... things forcefully. And why did SHE keep quiet again (until she decided to do the suicide and spread those notes)? Uh... I mean, why not just do it to people who are actually WILLING to, rather than forcing people to? I am sure that those higher-ups have the money to hire some... professional. The thing I always HATE, no DESPISE, whenever I hear stories like this (mostly in movies & mangas) is WHY that the guys have to hit the one they are raping? WHY? I mean, raping itself is a VERY BAD, SUPER MEAN thing to do already, why all the hitting? Which leads me to a point that maybe these guys... feel inferior. I mean, inferior people just have that certain need to prove that they are stronger. But, they can just hire the professional to act as if they are so helpless, or whatever. Gee.

I just think raping is basically worst than killing people (not that I enjoy looking at news where people get killed for stupid, one-of-a-time-emotion such as jealousy, duh!). Just think. Raping tends to kill people emotionally. And they still have to go have a life with their mind... scarred. On the other hand, when a person is killed, then that's it. Their life end, at least they don't have to suffer mental damages, of course we don't know what will actually happen in the after life. The saddest thing is to see the suicides after the rapings. It would be better if they could actually recover and turn a new page, but... ugh. Sometimes that thing just doesn't happen.

The agency or the... whatever it's called... There was that article saying how she asked help from her... whatever-it's-called because she has been beaten by bottles(?) err... abused for the last month (or year?) What she got from her whatever-it's-called was more beating?! WHAT THE HELL?! If you don't want to help, just say so. How hard is saying, "Sorry, I don't give a damn about you, so don't go here begging for help!"?

Of course, it's just a one-sided story that I'm hearing, and the truth is... I don't know if it's true or not. But it just got me soooo pissed off that whenever I remembered, I got so... pissed off! Gosh, anyway, my drawing teacher has come, so... ciao!

2011-03-08T23:15:00.000+07:00

I went to watch No String Attached with a friend of mine today. We stayed around in my house for an hour or so before going to the mall, though. And she wanted to re-watch that Thai movie I talked about in my previous post. (She went to watch it at the cinema a few days ago, after I urged her to, like "Go watch it, seriously, it's goooooooddddddd!".)

When the time was an hour before the movie is played at the cinema, we kinda fast-forwarded to that scene where the main guy character opened that damn-it-makes-me-so-jealous-at-the-girl book, geez. She started crying! Literally, like with the sounds. Gosh, I was like, "What, why? Isn't it supposed to be a very sweet scene which makes you go 'Awwwww!" (or "KYAAA!" in my case)?". I can't believe it, I thought it was only my Sis being all weird and cried over that scene. Ugh, I think I cried at the scene before that when she confessed (and kinda "OH, STUPID, IT'S THE POOL!" when she turned ninety degrees to try getting out of the venue and "SHOOT, YOUR SKIRT IS UP!" the second time and the next next next time I watch it) or did I also cry at that scene too? Hm...

Anyway, No Strings Attached was... so-so. Maybe because I've read the reviews that it's bad and I only got a bit "aww" at the ending scene. Too much sex jokes. And... the nude ass shown on the movie was... "Euh..." But he's quite handsome, that Ashton Kutcher. And Natalie Portman kinda looks old... Maybe it's because of the eye bag (?), or maybe it's just because I'm so jealous that she's actually so pretty. (I am confusing.) In the middle of the movie, I realized how Portman's skin tone was not even. At her back, there was that... whiter criss-cross strap thingy... So, wow. Those celebrites are actually humans! (The effect of seeing too many Korean actors and actresses whose faces look kinda perfect, not to mention the ingenious make up.)

HOLY. Firefox suddenly crashed on me and I thought I would lose all the things I had typed, good thing they have the auto-save feature.

Anyway, did I ever say I want to have something to do? Because now I feel like going back to those beautiful moments where I had nothing to do.

Thailand Movie, Oh My God, I LOVE YOU!

2011-03-05T18:55:00.000+07:00

Yes, I'm in a phase where I think writing long things at the title is cool.

Thanks to my friend's tumblr, I remember about wanting to post about this SUPER AWESOMELY COOL MOVIE, which favorite scenes have been repeaten by me for like 4-5 times (and I just watched it yesterday... or two days ago). I love it that much. And I just realized (according to the tumblr post) that there's no kissing scene, and it's Mario Maurer. I've seen that guy before and he made me fell for him that time too, AND RIGHT NOW I AM SO CRAZY OVER HIM! (If grinning like crazy just because you see him on a TV ad in a public place isn't crazy, I don't know what it is.)

There! Just because he's so handsome, I put two pictures there. (More like because I don't know which one is the actual cover.) The title is (in my file) "First Love (A Little Thing Called Love)". (Ugh, I feel like watching it again! Hold it, Nike! Type this post first.) My friend, Phoebe, was the one who recommended me this movie, and good thing I google-d right after because I usually forget friends' suggestions as time goes by unless I google them and keep 'em in my saved tabs (which always result in massive amount of saved tabes) and I start straying from the topic.

I can't believe myself when I cried over friendship things! I usually laugh it off, you know. But in this movie (maybe because it was in the midnight and no one was around), my tears just... came out! Wow, and those Thailand actors/actresses cry so fast! Which reminds me of how the owner of the tumblr above, Sasa, said how Thailand's dramas are even meaner than the ones in my country, so it's kinda understandable that they have that great of an acting skill. (Mind you, the actresses in my country also cry greatly... that sometimes it feels so annoying.)

And the guy. WHY? I SHOULD GO VISIT THAILAND SOMEDAY! Gosh, so... AAAAAAAAAA! Okay, you get my point. My favorite scene is that scene where that handsome guy did... THAT! AAAA! *still so crazy everytime I recall that scene* When he opened that damn super-making-me-jealous-of-the-girl book, I was basically trying so hard to hold in my kyaa-ing (good thing it was midnight) and that's the scene I've been repeating for those many times. And wow, I should ask the recipe of becoming so white in one-two years from the girl. o_o

The first few minutes, I was like, "Urgh, kids story. This is gonna be boring..." After the first hour, I didn't even remember I said that (until just now when I was typing it). So, WATCH IT WATCH IT WATCH IT. OMG, seriously, WATCH IT!

(I'm using this browser without spellchecker, so forgive me for spelling mistakes and for not using more intelligent words, not that I have that many intelligent vocabs in my vocabulary list in my head. Wow, that previous sentence just shows how limited my vocabulary is.)

So, I'll be rewatching it again now, just a little before I go take bath.

By the way, after in the middle of watching that, I went into my parents' room to check on the unworking internet (I needed to release my shout at Twitter that time), I was so excited that both my parents woke up and asked me if anything was wrong. I couldn't keep my grins in check!

I Actually Don't Know What to Post,

2011-03-01T01:00:00.000+07:00

But it's in the middle of the night, and I am bored because I'm waiting for all those pictures in my mail to load, while I was opening a new tab, I found the link to my blog as my most visited site... Which is not true... kind of. I mean, I don't think I've been opening my blog that often lately... Or yeah for the last few days.

Just a while ago, I was reminded of this conversation I had with my parents while we were passing through a growing cafes & restaurant district so close from my house and found some buildings being renovated to be (most likely) a wine... cafe(?). I'm not sure what's it's called, but they sell wine there. Winery? Anyway, I told my parents, "I wanna try drinking wine. Maybe we should open that wine we got from Auntie!" to which my Dad replied, "Can't open that. We'll have to finish it once we open it. Just ask for one at the airplane.". Me: "But I must pay rigggghhhttt???". Dad: "No way. You can get one for free. It's a national carrier and such..." (My Dad is referring to how I'll be riding the Japan Airlines, if I didn't mis-peek.). Me: "Really? But then I'll have a bad image in front of my new friends!" Hah! ... Well, the point of posting this conversation is just to say that apparently my parents don't mind me trying wine... (and how I care so much about public image).

I was trying to memorize these new set of kanji my teacher just gave me this afternoon when I felt that drawing is way funner than these kanji. I really enjoyed that time when I made messy sketch of my messy table last night. Which kind of leads me to a conclusion that I really enjoy learning new things, but don't persevere very much. I tend to give up when I can't do something well. And yeah, I am the type who have to do well in something to like it... not actually do well, at least I have to think I do well. Err, you know, people don't have the same view about "well". Oh, gee. I start rambling. Back to the topic, it is a bad habit. Nope, characteristic is the right word. Which is bad... I have to change... At least, try to change. Um... KANJI IS HARD. Gosh. *super stressed*

Oh, gosh. An hour ago I waited for this one of my downloads to finish (because it's so hard to get 50kbps unless it's at midnight, I don't know how my old computer did it, must have done something and totally forgot about it!) then now, an hour later, it tells me to wait for another 30 minutes. Gosh, I AM so tired already. I can't stand the internet. Ugh...

My kanji test tomorrow is gonna suck... Duh, night.

Drawing, Drawing, Drawing...

2011-02-27T23:13:00.000+07:00

I don't get why drawing is so hard. Ribka, please lend me your skill, please please please please... ._.

I just drew. The piano at my house... and my messy table (just sketches I made while re-watching Take the Lead, SUPER cool movie! *kyaa-ing every time it's tango dancing*) and you know, I think it's good enough, but I am quite sure the teacher will say otherwise... Blah, those with too high tastes... -.-

Yesterday (I was about to say "Last Saturday" then just remembered that it was just yesterday, duh...), I went to take more drawing class at a different place and they told me to draw plants. I don't get why. WHY?! Gee, the only types of plants I can draw is straight trunk then giving it curly hair for trees and round in the middle, with five half circles surrounding it, a tiny bit curvy line then one leaf for flowers. And no, I don't even make them nicely. Like, super scrawly, whatever that word means. With that skill of mine, those people, the teacher and the assistant, told me to draw plants with all the details. THOSE PLANTS HAVE WAY TOO MANY LEAVES! What hurt the most was when I was done with my drawing then the assistant passed by and said, "Are you done? Oh, you haven't...". Shoot. I felt like shouting, "NO WAY, I AM done!". Then when he (the assistant) told me to kinda fix my crappy shading, I kinda did it, so fast then he told me to slow down and I was like... (in my mind) "Why do I have to slow down? I mean, all I have to do is just... darken these areas..." I know, I'm just not a very artistic person. It was his fault, anyway, he never taught me how to do shades, that was my freaking first meeting. ._.

Today, for like almost the whole day, from 8 to 5 (wow, it was like working!), I had this training thingy for the Tzu Chi Buddhist Foundation. I just wanted to know, though, I didn't buy the uniform... (and it was quite expensive, the uniform... ._.) It was... you see, at some point, I just stopped paying too much attention to the speakers and start playing with my phone. I even finished all the levels in this game I have been playing again and again (because I can't play the other game in my phone which is that football thing, my cousin always had a very good laugh whenever he watched me play *I basically made suicide goals, err... that thing where I score into my own... goal?*, and I am not going to pay anymore for new games). Towards the end, while listening to Master Cheng Yen's (I dunno the spelling of the name) speech (via DVD), it was very touching when they were showing pictures of the recent earthquake in New Zealand. *sigh* Lately I get touched way to easily. I even cry for stupid things... like... err, can't remember. Need brakes for my tears!

Tomorrow I'll have more drawing class, wish me luck. Seriously, I need a hell lot of 'em.

(the grammar must be a wreck from start to end... I kinda... don't hone my English skills anymore...)

OH, SHOOT. Just remembered I haven't reviewed anything for my Japanese lessons tomorrow. Uh-oh.

Drawing Class

2011-02-23T14:11:00.000+07:00

Why? Why did I ever comply taking Architecture as my major? Why did I ever enroll in that drawing class? Why, Why, Why? Gee, WHY?!

Oh, Gosh. Yes, I got my first drawing lesson and it was hard. Bah, I am so ashamed looking at what I draw. HAH! Just wait, my drawing will get extremely awesome… someday.

I am so tired. And I keep on unintentionally ignoring these calls from the embassy. The first time was yesterday, while I was writhing in pain, hiding in my brother’s room, which was this one area in my house where even my superior phone carrier coverage could not reach… I realized later on that I was called and could not be reached (from a friend of mine whom I asked to be the vice). This morning, I just got into the drawing class then I thought it was my Mom calling me to make sure I had arrived at the destination. When the teacher went out to do something, I checked my phone and shoot. It was the embassy again. Then, the appointed group leader for the bachelor degree texted me asking about how the embassy asked her about the meeting.

Why? Why am I the one being called all the time? I mean, I know, I am the one who told the embassy about this meeting we are going to do, but… I SHOULD HAVE ANSWERED. It’s not like I don’t want to answer, just that… they rarely call at the right time, you know. Either I am sleeping or I am in class… The timing just… don’t match. So sorry, Embassy! D:

Japanese Lessons

2011-02-22T15:05:00.000+07:00

*the teacher just went home*

So, today, she asked me to write a paragraph (an article, actually, if it’s any different) which has to include the five words she listed. And that was hard. It should have something to do with business, which I know so little about. I wrote whatever came to my mind and when she checked, she asked the meaning of almost every sentences and I only made around 3-5 sentences. Hah! I suck THAT much. Then she did not give up. She asked me to write about two more paragraph. Gee… And we basically spent the whole hour doing that. She was just waiting for me to finish my writing almost the whole time, though.

By the way, I started watching Yukan Club today. Just wait, I’ll finish all these Japanese dorama my friend lent me before going to Japan!

2011-02-21T18:33:00.001+07:00

Sleeping at 2 AM, waking up mid noon, skipping almost all lunches. Wow, my habit is basically really, really unhealthy. And there goes my year resolution of not sleeping late… or early in this case. Unbelievable. Really, blame my stomach for not getting hungry!

Today was basically spent lamenting over my cramps (not sure I’m using the right expression, just typing the words popping in my head. ._.). You know, turning around on the bed having Maichii cover my stomach while I whine and whine and whine. To myself. Until I finally fell asleep, woke up, feeling more alright, still uncomfortable, got back to sleep again then woke up again, discovering it was 5 in the afternoon and my laptop had gone out of battery (I was watching DVD) and turned itself off. (Actually, I could walk a bit and plugged in the cable, but that, too, would be so hard to do with the cramp I had, that was how bad it was!) The first thought was actually, “Oops, I haven’t eaten! But it’s almost time my Mom got home, so I’ll just eat later…” then I went upstairs, plugged in the laptop then played game till my Mom actually got home and (as usual) questioned me about why I did not eat. I just can’t imagine how I will be on my own in Japan.

On Saturday, I registered myself to a drawing class! *I just feel like I need it, SO MUCH* It was this place a friend of mine recommended and my first class will be on Wednesday. And I am soooo looking forward to it.

I give up the idea of taking lessons to study Mathematics and Physics (which I think will be needed for my future classes) because… just too lazy and can’t really find the motivation to do it.

The Japanese lessons are getting harder. And today when I went through the lesson with the cramp starting to settle in, getting so bad at almost the end of the studies (gee, I don’t get how others can hold the pain! o_o), I must have sucked. It was so hard to concentrate! But I am amazed at my progress. Wow, like I can actually ~~understand~~ read those… drawings! Gee, I must be quite good. *there goes my narcissism*

Baking Class

2011-02-19T15:44:00.000+07:00

Although I've finished the classes like 1-2 weeks ago, I still have the test to do. Today I went there to get the materials for the theory test and gosh. It was tiring. Not the class, but having to meet all those people and pretend to be a nice kid, smiling to those oh-so-fake compliments. BLAH. I can't wait to finish the class. Seriously. Pronto. (But I ended up taking the tests on Thursday because there was a friend who's taking it on Thursday too...)

And I am addicted to The Sims 3 again. I don't know why. I mean, that game can be categorized as a very boring game. No purpose... but I can't help it. *fail*

2011-02-18T21:54:00.001+07:00

Today I went karaoke for the first time (I know I’m lame). It was fun. ((:

And my new laptop is a very powerful thing (despite how quickly the battery runs out, my friend said it was the normal battery life for a laptop, though). There is this feature when making a new character in The Sims 3 where you can lengthen the eyelash. All this time, I thought it did nothing other than making the area above the eyes a bit darker after playing it in my computer, BUT. Using this laptop, wow… I can clearly distinguish between each lashes! Thanks to the 2GB RAM! So awesome.

Today is the second day I have been doing laundry in the house. A few days ago my Mom taught me how to use the washing machine as part of the preparations to go to Japan. Also, last night, Mom taught me how to sew (I can’t believe I forgot the “sew” word before looking up “stitch” in the dictionary) buttons back to its proper place. So many things to learn. I suck at household stuffs.

The new background is a bit disorienting.

Some New Pictures

2011-02-17T22:51:00.000+07:00

What I wore some time ago, which my Mom looked at me weirdly and said, “I don’t know what to do with you.” HAHAHA. Lately I’ve been wearing the kinds of clothes which makes my Mom say that.

This was when we went to a vihara in Bogor. (And, yes, the same pants from the above picture and the same bag, I just don’t have too many things… ._.) And my Mom said the same thing, but I think she already let me wear what I want, lol. Too tired of saying that what I’m wearing is so… outdated.

And tonight we finally got stock of some fresh milk ever since that time my Mom stopped the daily delivery of the fresh cow milk we (my sister and I) usually drink at night. Although this one tasted kind of strange, unlike the usual one we have. :?

I INSTALLED THE SIMS 3

2011-02-17T22:28:00.000+07:00

And played it for a while! I'm so happy. I should have learnt all the tips and tricks in building houses, though. I kinda had difficulties when I wanted to make another floor on an existing house. Ended up playing pre-made characters.

Anyway, it's 80% chance that I'll be in Osaka for my first year. My Japanese language teacher said that it was a very beautiful place and a quieter one (compared to Tokyo), thus making it a great place to study. The downside is that out of 7 people (including me) who got the D2 scholarship, only me and another person got into Osaka, while the rest will go to Tokyo. And two of them whom I've made friends with are also in Tokyo. It's kinda sad. But I have had conversation with the senpai from Indonesia who are currently in Osaka, and they all seem so nice, so at the same time, I am also looking forward to meeting them! Although I am pretty sure I will be so quiet, being shy to strangers and stuffs.

Today at English class, I was like sooo bad. We had this spontaneous presentation and seeing how I was the type who could not talk unless the subject was in my knowledge, I was like... 60% quiet, 40% talking and that was after the teacher helped me with some pointers. Not to mention how I had to go first. Gee, so nerve-wrecking! I really think I should take some public speaking class. Like, super in need. o_o

THE DILEMMA IS OVER

2011-02-12T18:37:00.000+07:00

I was confused between getting the 14" or the 15". I mean, the difference was only in the Blu-Ray DVD (which has a very low chance of me using it) and the additional 150GB hard disk (and something about the speaker which I don't understand). But, blah. I decided to get the 15" since the weight difference was only about 0.4kg and $100 in price (and I love big things). So here I am typing with my new Dell XPS 15". Apparently this Firefox I just installed doesn't have the automatic spell checker. The feature should be there, though, but it just won't appear... those red-jagged-lines.

AND IT'S SO HARD TO SCROLL! Unbelievable. I forgot to weigh that scrolling feature when I asked the sales (and I have been asking about this XPS model for like two or three days). But I'll mostly use a mouse (still isn't liking pads), though, so I don't give a damn. I will also need to get used to Windows 7. Good bye, my super slow windows XP computer... in a few more months. And this easy-to-reach-touchpad-disactivation/activation-button is so convenient. I got sick typing on my Mom's laptop because the pad keeps on detecting my hovering fingers and thus moving the cursor away.

Please, please, please let me be satisfied with this laptop! It would be such a great embarrassment if I end up getting disappointed from this purchase (and wish to have purchased the 14") since my Dad had been telling me the whole time how big laptops are so outdated and stuffs. And when we get home, my Mom said, "Well, she does like outdated stuffs... er... what do you call that... ah! Vintage." I was like, "Nooooo, stop it!" (was on the verge of regretting). I did read the review that the 14" was okay, but the 15" one was worth the purchase and at first I wanted to buy this one too, but... I get swayed too easily. Gah! Just buy a new one. HAHAHA. The benefit of having a younger sister is that you can just dump your unwanted items (or gadgets) to her hehe.. :D

Gotta go. ((:

And please don't mind the lame spelling. I'm used to having spell checkers during my typing. :x

2011-02-09T18:53:00.001+07:00

What I wore during Chinese New Year. The shirt on the second photo was used as the outer when I got cold. The heels was something I bought last minute (because all the shoes I wanted was basically unavailable for me) after my brother said it was good. AND SHOOT. The beautiful red bag cannot be seen!

THE NEW GLASSES!

The photo my sister took while I was taking picture with my brother.

The stupidly expensive nail.

VERY, VERY CUTE PARROT! Ugh, I should have tried poking its head... It looked so... tempting! Ugh!

AH! That's the bag I said! And Maichii... and books...

Been a very long time since the last time I took picture with Maichii! Hehe... *super freaky*

I just want to show how dirty Maichii is... even when compared to Sticky and Fungichii which are also dirty. It's like, Maichii is the dirtiest of all... o_o

The things on the table beside my bed. So... messy compared to my sister's side... I have a bad feeling about how my room is gonna be when I am in Japan.

THE ADORABLE MAICHII PENCIL CASE! Hehe...

And Mr. Elephant which has been around since... my sister's childhood... or my brother's or mine... whatever. It's usually in the car, but some time ago my Mom brought it back and she forgot to put it back, so I place him on my bed.

My other dolls currently... ._.

My sister's DooDolls sulking in the corner, lol, so cute. And even the dirty DooDolls is cleaner than Maichii... Maybe it's because Maichii's original colour is rather yellowy? :?

So few dolls on my bed. *sigh*

Super pointless post... o_o

Laptop, Laptop, Why are You so Hard to Choose?

2011-02-06T23:45:00.000+07:00

Gee, Bro, what a way to crush all my effort? It was just one step left till Dad agreed to buy me that damn Alienware M11x and you ruined it. Now I am confused if I should get a Dell or an HP or a Lenovo? Although I don't really like the design of the Lenovo laptops... So the choice is between Dell or HP. I AM IN A DILEMMA. I'm thinking of getting Dell XPS, but but but... I don't know if I actually need that or not! D: (Well, I don't actually need an Alienware, but...)

Anyway, PLEASE GIVE ME SUGGESTIONS!

And Happy Chinese New Year! (Although it's late...) Chinese New Year Post coming up... someday!

My Heart is Pounding

2011-02-01T22:23:00.000+07:00

This morning, I got myself a French Manicure and a normal Pedicure which cost me 350k. Even I thought (still think) that that was expensive. I was particularly shocked when I looked at the bill.

LESSON #1 OF THE DAY: ASK THE PRICE BEFORE DOING ANY PURCHASING / SERVICES.

Getting back home after watching some episodes of Autumn Concerto at my friend's house (with whom I got my manicure & pedicure with), I was so lucky that my parents did not scold me or anything. (I sent text messages indicating my own self shock to my Mom right after the service.) I took my bath and all the skin care routine then decided to roll for a while in the bed, while waiting for my Mom to get ready since from some earlier phone call there was an indication that we would go tonight to either find shoes (YES, I STILL HAVEN'T FOUND A PAIR OF SHOES AND I AM PANICKING) or take my ordered glasses (I ordered new glasses!). Stupidly, I fell asleep. Seriously, usually before falling asleep for naps like these ones, I have this feeling and I will turn on my alarm about half an hour to an hour to prevent me from oversleeping. This time, I did not think there was the usual feeling, so I fell asleep... When I woke up, it was so quiet. I peeked at the clock and shoot. I slept for THREE HOURS. Which means I would not be getting my shoes again today, nor my glasses and I was quite sure my Mom would be angry (she is, I called her some time ago).
I had been doing that on purpose, though, sometimes. Taking naps because I did not know what to do... Like on holidays and stuffs. It would be like fast-forwarding the time. This evening, I realized how... fast it felt when time passed just like that without doing anything than sleeping. Just now I felt like I had been missing SO MUCH. Which reminds me of that movie... can't remember the title... where the guy has this time fast-forwarding / rewinding remote in which he ends up not being able to control the remote anymore and somehow all his life is fast-forwarded and he has to watch everything around him happening while not having any control about it. I might know how it feels... Just it's three hours matter for me and tens of years for him (until his death, which was VERY touching). Which comes to my second conclusion:

LESSON #2 OF THE DAY: STOP TAKING NAPS. SLEEP ONLY AT NIGHT (or in the morning).

The heart-breaking thing was, which basically made me lose all my appetite to have dinner (I still had it, though), how my Mom was angrier (from her voice) for the second event rather than the first. I feel so... ungrateful...

With 11 more months to year end, these two things will be my resolution of the year: STOP FRIVOLOUS PURCHASES (except for clothes and shoes, MOM, LET ME BUY MORE CLOTHES AND SHOES hehe...) and LEARN TO SLEEP ONLY AT NIGHT (that means no sleeping in the car, although this is more tolerable, and naps).

Kare Kano & Mekakushi no Kuni

2011-01-30T23:46:00.000+07:00

Mind you, this is very addictive (at least for me). So please start reading in the morning. I made a mistake and had to read the last 11 volumes until 4 in the morning. It was a record.

Title: Kare Kano (彼氏彼女の事情 | His and Her Circumstances)
Creator: Masami Tsuda
Length: 21 volumes
Status: Complete

Yukino Miyazawa is really, really vain, and loves to hear people praise her. She's always been the best at everything, and always tries to look perfect. But when Yukino goes to high school, she's finally upstaged--by Souichiro Arima, who scores better on the entrance exams and instantly snatches the attention of the class. By accident, Arima finds out that Yukino is just pretending, and this starts off a series of events that lead to Yukino and Arima falling in love. They then have to cope with a lot of obstacles in their relationship. [taken from animenewsnetwork] read online

It's like this series has it all. Scary scenes, sad scenes, happy scenes, SUPER FUNNY scenes, everything! *super exaggeration, but I do feel that way!* And the reason why I just had to keep going until it ended was exactly because of some graphics which were waaaayyyy to scary for me. I knew it would have a happy ending (I had a feeling), so unless I read it till the end the scary images would be burnt into my head and I would kind of have a hard time sleeping *just a reason, though, I still have yet to not be able to sleep soundly*. IT'S NOT HORROR, THOUGH. I don't read horror.

I really love the main female character (Yukino)! And the way she interacts with the main male (Arima). And their friends and and and and and... just... EVERYTHING! It is an old manga, yes, I realize that, but seriously, it's worth reading... It has actually been in my database for a long long long time *looks at the date* ... ... 2007! Gee... ._. *coughs throat* I just started reading it this week, though... then got interrupted then finally finished them last night... err... in the morning. HAVE TO READ! HAVE TO! HAAAAVEEEEE TOOOOOOO!

While browsing through the 'manga' tag just now, trying to find the format for the description, I found out that I have yet to post about Mekakushi no Kuni, so... here you go!

Title: Mekakushi no Kuni (目隠しの国)
Creator: Tsukuba Sakura
Length: 9 volumes
Status: Complete

Cheerful high schooler Outsuka Kanade has a secret: when she touches people, she can sometimes see a glimpse of their future. Kanade learns that new student Naitou Arou has a secret as well--he can see the pasts of people and objects he touches. Arou and Kanade must decide whether to risk humiliation and rejection by helping the people they see in their visions, or do nothing. The appearance of Namiki Masahiro, a boy who uses his ability to see the future for selfish ends, further complicates matters, especially since both he and Arou are in love with Kanade.
Kanade is a cheerful girl who sometimes sees people's near future when she touches them. She meets Arou, a boy who can see people's pasts and they start dating. Another boy comes in who can see the future too, Namaki-san. He likes Kanade as well. Together the three of them meet various people and deal with their strange powers. [taken from animenewsnetwork] read online

It's way a lighter read compared to Kare Kano, although both have some really deep points and they just kind of inspire me. Shorter series and VERY beautiful one. Seriously, it just... shines... Maybe the editor of the scanlation is just THAT great... It is... "colorful". I really love this one. When I read it, it was so... touching. Not just in a sad way, but... I'm bad with words... Anyway, JUST READ THEM! Hehe...

WOOHOO! HAPPY DAY!

2011-01-30T23:14:00.000+07:00

Yes, of course today is a happy day. I mean, getting the bag I fell in love with at first sight (after days of lamenting if I should buy it or not, considering the price), the sleeveless I long for ever since the first time seeing it, the blazer (suit?) I had been searching for such a long time, how can I not be happy??? (((:

And I was the one who paid for all those things (using my Mom's credit card), so it just adds more to my happiness! HAHAHA! I LOVE spending money. Hehe... If only money is so easy to be earned...

My brother came home yesterday (from abroad) and spent the first night out... which exactly explains why I feel normal with or without my brother in the country. And until now I haven't seen him yet... o_o AND HE PROMISED TO GIVE ME THE "How I Met Your Mother" SERIES! CHE... (Okay, he still has like... a week until he has to go return to his work... abroad.)

I CAN'T FIND THE SHOES I WANT, BUT I CUT MY HAIR!

2011-01-28T22:40:00.000+07:00

Okay, so that's me and my new hair (and the free birthday gift from Sushi Tei). There goes my words about not wanting to show this pic to anyone! HAHAHA! :D Anyway, what do you think about the curly hair? I'm thinking of actually making it curly... kinda... permanently. Err, the one in the above pic is temporary only...

Ice Skating & More Ranting

2011-01-25T23:52:00.000+07:00

I went skating with my friends today. It was my second time, the first time was with my Dad when I was in Primary School and I can hardly remember it... It was fun, even the falling part was kind of fun. But, like how all untrained bodies were, my body could not handle it. After around half or an hour of doing it, my back and stomach ached... I felt old.

And there is this problem with one of my housekeepers. I don't get why my Dad is so keen on keeping her when all she has been doing is basically stressing almost everyone out, especially my Mom, who tries to save money as much as she can. First, she started using OUR (my and my Mom's) skin care products, then eating our food (the last time I bought that Famous Amos cookies, she FREAKING ATE THE WHOLE PACKET (one of them, the smallest size, but still... getting my Mom to buy those required quite some effort!), and I had yet to eat one piece of it), then taking money (I place my money quite disorderly), and STUPIDLY unplugging MY cables. I am quite fine with the money thing or the products thing or the food, but MY CABLES. It pissed the hell out of me when I found out that the cable which connected my external hard disk to my computer was unplugged. And there was that one time when the computer WAS ON and the ex-HD plugged. SHOOT, I was enraged. Ugh... My Mom, on the other hand, was pissed on the rest. Right now, she locked the products (even the pads, yes, pads) inside a storage. And it's annoying, you see... Every morning and afternoon, after taking bath, I have to take the key from a hidden place, unlock the storage, take everything out, use them, put them back into the storage, then lock the storage. It took a hell of efforts. Not to mention when I am suddenly in need of pads, I have to do the above steps to get them. Ugh...
Today, that housekeeper (after HOURS of my Dad doing those sermons), she ran away from the house to the office where my parents found her. The office called my Mom when she was in the office (my family's) and they had to rush back home to take care of those things. AND EVEN AFTER THAT, I don't think they're going to return her anytime soon. WHY? POURQUOI? If it were me, I would have returned her from the first time I felt so pissed off about her. I mean, the point of having a housekeeper is to ensure that when we get home from work / school, the house would be in a clean condition, thus reducing our worry about something, then why? Why keep a housekeeper who ADDS worries? Wow...
The other one... I think she SHOULD BE at least a bit more normal than that other one. Although, I am currently at the stage of mistrusting all these new housekeepers. The even weirder thing is that, they both back-stab each other in front of my parents. I mean, the thing is, all this time, I thought that being in the same profession would somehow increase their sense of patriotism (am I even using the right word?) and protect each other, WHAT IS WITH THESE PEOPLE?! And after all those back-stabbing and some cryings, when my parents are away, and I am home with my computer in front of me, they ALWAYS make noises downstairs, laughing together and stuffs. Are they plotting something? After that they will go back to being back-stabbers then back again to laughing, just keep on repeating those cycles. Unbelievable.
OH! That first housekeeper I talked about (let's just say Housekeeper A) enjoys swearing using crude language. The most annoying thing is that she says that in loud voices, sometimes in the presence of my little sister. Yes, she is currently in Junior High School, but she is still at the point where she cannot differentiate things she can copy and not, in my point of view, which increases her chance of getting influenced to speaking THOSE WORDS. Even I don't use those words when I am swearing. I mean, even I think that those words are TOO RUDE.

Talking about my sister, a few days / last week, I pissed her off by asking her to stop watching the DVD because I wanna watch the TV, which caused her to run to our room in tears. A few moments later, she went back to the room, taking a picture of mine. I asked her what that was for, but she would not answer and gave the mean look, so I followed her to her room and found a book on top of her bed, which led me to the conclusion that she was doing (or going to do) something with that book. When she realized that I had my eyes upon that book, she immediately protected it. Me? Blah, I knew she would be asleep in no time, so I could just indulge myself reading it some time later in the night.
I did it, before I went to sleep, I read that book. The first page was something like a threat to not open the book. I opened it, nevertheless. The first few pages was something kind of not very important to me, then I read this page... "The Hate Diary" (or "Diary of Hatred", or something with "diary" and "hate"), "Don't open or you will go to hell now" (or something like that). Wow, she kind of did what I used to do, I mean, without the hell part (or was it with? :?). I grinned then opened the next page. She wrote "My Sister" (or something that indicated that it was me she was talking about) and "should have wrote this a few days ago" (maybe that should have been a few years ago, but she mis-thought it). Then she wrote about how she hated me then the next page was "A picture of her: [next line] Because she would not let me take her photo, I'll draw her" (not the exact copy, but it was something like that). The drawing was... wow, even I was kind of scared of it. Like a kid's drawing of a demon... LOL, I JUST CALLED MYSELF A DEMON. Okay, my first thought was "Wow, so I look like this in her imagination, HAHAHA!". Then arrows pointing to the different parts of my faces. Something about my messy hair (this I know very well) and my big eyes (which is something I like, apparently she said something like how they were about to pop out... ....). Before the picture, I think there was something like how she said I was selfish. This, my dear Sister, I have known for quite some time and who cares? It's my life anyway. Hah! *acting super selfish* And that was basically the entry. OH, AND SOMETHING SAYING LIKE I WAS LIKE A GHOST! THAT WAS FUNNY! XD (I have been using too much 'something' and 'like'.)
After reading it, I got like, "What would happen if I tell this to my parents? Hm..." Then after giving it more thought, when I was around her age, I was also thinking about how life was so mean to me, then wrote those kinds of things (I think I started in a diary (which never lasted long) then to blogs) and there was that one time when my Dad found out about it and gave me hours (exaggeration) of sermons... which I hated (still don't like it), so I'll just let her be and... hope that she somehow realizes... a bit. HAHAHA! I mean, I am still doing it now, anyways. Besides, almost everyone needs a space where she / he can express his / her every thought to keep gaining in life. (;

No re-reading done. Excuse the, as always, lame grammars.

WOW, I just realized I did not write anything for 23 days and now it's my BIRTHDAY! (:

2011-01-23T23:54:00.000+07:00

Finally! 17 years old. You see, I have been so looking forward to finally being 17, but now that I am, I don't know what's the difference! And I just realized that being a legal person means that soon enough I will have to earn my own money to get things I want. Sheesshh, sucks.

BUT, it will mean I am another step into experiencing even more things in life! And me and my family took videos and pics and in the middle of the process, it kinda moved me to tears (although I miraculously managed to hide it!).

Today was kind of a very busy day. Like, we have so many things to prepare before the Chinese New Year. I accompanied my Mom ordering parcels (my Mom's haggling skills is kind of amazing... o_o) and the traditional cake(?) (I'm not sure what it is, I think it's the sticky brownish-red thingy which is SO YUMMY and sweet). OH! Before that we went to eat lunch at this restaurant I had been wanting to try (although according to my Dad, I must have eaten it when I was very small). In the afternoon, I accompanied my Sis getting a new haircut at this hair salon my friend, Juwita, recommended. AND SHE LOOKED SO CUTE WITH HER NEW HAIRSTYLE. I am soooo jealous at her straight hair. ._. We then went to the mall to look for my shoes... and shoot. They didn't have my size! When I finally found the model I wanted and my Mom willing to buy them for me. *sigh*

After dinner at home, we took the pictures... Err, then I force myself to write a post. And yes, I actually realize that I haven't been posting for quite a long time...

Happiest moment was when that one person I had been looking forward to wish me a happy birthday (usually was the first message I received) finally did! HAHA! :D Then when my family and I took pictures and stuffs. And when my Sis got that bangs she actually hated so much (and it's so annoying when she looks good with it).

2011: Year-Start Resolution

2011-01-01T00:01:00.006+07:00

I CANNOT wait to go to Japan on April. Hopefully everything goes without hitch. (And I don't really know the meaning of the word...)

Um... be more diligent in my Japanese studies.

Be nicer to people. And more outgoing.

...

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY, DAMN IT. And happy is a state of mind, so I will be a happy girl this year! Oops, I'm gonna be 17 next year, so... woman...? Lol, that sounds weird.

THINK happy and BE happy! ((:

One last thing, please get me a crush!

2010: Year-End Conclusion

2010-12-31T23:59:00.145+07:00

I was inspired by fellow blogger-s who made their end year post by compiling all the things they went through the year. *I'm just being a copycat, I know* At first, I waved the idea away since, heck! My memory is NOT that good. A while ago, though, a light bulb shone above my head... why in the first place I made my blog, really? To write when I need to and share things when I feel like it. (Same reason as to why I LOVE Twitter so much.) Which also means, I must have an archive of almost everything here!

So here I am currently re-reading my blog posts from January 2010.

### -- January 2010.
My birthday month! Although I have to say that my birthday in 2009 was still the best, but I like to think every time my birthday is about to arrive, that something special is going to happen. And yeah, like all my birthday before 2009, it was a so-so birthday. I do like being congratulated, though. 16 is also one of my favorite number of age, because... BLAME SHOUJO MANGAS! HAHAHA!
This month was the first time I was ever called to the principal office for something bad I did, which was trying to go home earlier than supposed to, mind you, I was about to go back to class when I got caught. It went surprisingly usual... Nothing too scary... I would say, it was a very amusing experience. Considering how I love finding holes in people's speeches, my principal's was interesting.
Photo shoot for the yearbook! WHERE THE HELL IS MY YEARBOOK?! This is exactly the reason why I hesitated paying for my yearbook, but I had to because the school refused to give me... something I cannot remember, if I did not. And my Junior High's yearbook has yet to be distributed too. Wow, this angers me. Lame school.

### -- February 2010
My first time discovering Bakuman and is addicted ever since! And Lookbook! Which means it was around that time when I finally got interested in dressing up nicely, although I have to say I still have a long way to go. Seriously long.
This was also the month when I realized the urgency of my unfinished final paper, but was still procrastinating, and must be the month when I started preparing for my National Examinations... like crazy. Imagine I was still wavering about my topic when the deadline was only in a month. In the end, though, the deadline was extended. Gee, what CANNOT be extended in my school?

### -- March 2010
I bought a new printer/document-feeder/scanner/fax this month, which I still love dearly until now!
The month where I regained some of my freedom after finishing my National Exams. Before the exams, on the other hand, this was exactly the month where I must have been so stressed out because those five days (?) would basically decide my WHOLE life. *maximum exaggeration* And my first time actually studying in advance! HAHA! I usually only study a day before the exam, but for the Biology test, I did a week studying!
Favorite song of the month (it continued for quite some time, though): Waving Flag - K'naan.

### -- April 2010
Please say that this was the month I finished my final paper!
This month was when my Mother realized the importance of braces. Currently, though, I am kind of not wanting to get one... Although I might change my mind later. My sister is refusing them... hard.
OOOOHH, apparently this was the month when I found out about my National Examinations result, which brought me a step closer to the scholarship! Woo, I must have been so happy on that particular day, the announcement day.
And no, still have not finished the final papers. Gee, Nike, what a great procrastination you did! o_o
Was also the month when I started not liking my uncle. Which reminds me about years ago (or last year?) when my Grandma told me how he told one of his daughters not to follow how I act, which is acting like xiao jie. In English... miss-y? Or bossy? What a way to back-stab, Uncle. Well, I'm sorry for being raised in an adequate family.

### -- May 2010
Favorite song of the month: Yves LaRock - Rise Up.
WOOHOO! IT'S HERE! THE TIME WHEN I FINISHED MY FINAL PAPERS! Hahahaha! Thank you so much, Ms. Laila, for passing my papers, even though I know how those papers suck a lot! *hugs tight*
My first time trying my hands on Aikido, which, as everyone already knew, ended up in three months! HAHA! :D But it was a very fun experience. At least, it will make me think twice the next time I am about to join something... sporty.
Oh! My school outbound was this month! The time where I discovered how scary living in the wild was. Although I was not exactly staying in the wild, but it was bad enough. Especially when you did not have enough water or a decent towel. My Mom gave me a new towel to bring to the camping and apparently it did not absorb water. First time I knew the existence of a non-water-absorbing towel.
I turned in my scores to the Japan embassy this month! Nervous-inducing activity! And changed my initial decision to take Hospitality Management to Architecture & Civil Engineering. Blah!
Took Math lessons with Juwita! ((: Fun time!
AND DECIDED TO TAKE STICKY TO MYSELF! Remember how I said he was originally a gift?? Sticky is still one of the cutest thing ever! Haha! I really love his long hands and feet, so CUTE!
I think I have most posts this month!

### -- June 2010
GRADUATION POST!
Also the month when I rediscovered the beautiful game! Auditorium! And when I started having those scary visions... Crying at nights... ._.

### -- July 2010
The scary visions got worse and got over 'em at the same month! It was a welcomed experience, though. I got more appreciative of my life and stuffs. Like, I had a lot of realizations at that moment.

*The monthly report gets shorter and shorter!*

### -- August 2010
Another call to tell that I passed the test for the Monbukagakusho scholarship! Uh oh, I missed the actual test and the call which told me when I could take the test! Must have been somewhere around last month. Anyway, I had my first interview and my first medical check-up!
Made a tumblr account which I never opened again! I do that kind of thing a lot... Making accounts and never actually opening them...
I bought my first make up! I am still having fun whenever I put them on! Although I usually try to wear it so thin that people do not actually realize unless they pay more attention. Whenever I put on make up, I always like looking in the mirror and try to find the change it gives me! :DD
Enrolled in the patisserie class this month. I still have a meeting left till now. And I'm too lazy to attend it, but the money... ;_;

### -- September 2010
My Dad's and Brother's birthdays are in this month!
Made a new blog, which I have yet to update more...
Ummm... I got my new lens this month, and I'm currently planning to get myself soft lens! :D

### -- October 2010

### -- November 2010
### -- December 2010

BLAH! I GIVE UP DOING THESE THINGS! Apparently, I have more blog posts than I imagined!

Anyway...

*remember that? :DD*

2010-12-31T14:06:00.000+07:00

Yesterday, at three in the morning, I was about to sleep. I went into my room and tried to wake my Dad up (my Dad usually sleeps on my bed until I turn off my computer). I tried the usual way, which is by using my dolls. I arranged my dolls on top of him TWICE and they did not work out. So, I left all the dolls on my bed lining on top of my Dad's body while I went to sleep in my Mom's room. Gee, I should have woken up earlier and seen how my dolls were in the morning...

Watched The Tourist yesterday with my friends and woo! I love Johnny Depp & Angelina Jolie! And I love the ending! I just love those about the movie, though... Nothing too special other than those, but I am a sucker for romantic movies... So... It was good.

Wow, I actually wanted to talk about lots of things yesterday, while I was planning my post, but... the words just vaporized. Must be because I was so shocked at how serious the side effect (?) of being anorexic was when I read an article from MTV.com about the death of Isabelle Caro, who was photographed nude in an ad against anorexia. And read an article about Anorexia nervosa (?) on Wikipedia. Rest in peace, Caro!

By the way, I am in love with Kaskade's Dynasty album!

Early Announcement

2010-12-28T23:08:00.001+07:00

This morning, as usual, I was rolling in my bed, too lazy to actually get up and get some work done, when a phone call came. Unregistered number… And, as usual, my reaction was, *sigh* “Who is calling…” And, like what happened before… Yes, I GOT THE SCHOLARSHIP! WOOHOO!

I went to the embassy today to hand in my passport and more photos. Gee, they cannot get enough of my photos! And the question asked when I gave the staff my passport, “You sure you aren’t using it?” Hurt me! T_T I AM NOT GOING ANYWHERE THIS HOLIDAY, STOP RUBBING SALT ON MY WOUND! *Am I using the right… idiom? Proverb?* *sigh* I want to go somewhere… Then I had to sign a paper… Then I went to the mall next door! Wow, now that I think about it, working there MUST BE nice. Bored? Just go to the mall next door, only a few minutes walking distance! Anyway, I bought two new books! One of them is a fashion book and it is sooooo pretty inside! Like, so many beautiful illustrations and beautiful backgrounds! I was about to regret buying the book, but looking at how beautiful the book was, the regret never actually came! HAHAHA! I know, I waste money too much…

…

Yes, I wanted to post the details, but I am now too lazy, so bye!

Oh, BTW, thanks for all the congratulations! (;

MISS ME, MISS ME, MISS ME?

2010-12-24T00:52:00.000+07:00

Oh, you must have missed me so badly! And my lovely posts!

FINALLY! HOLIDAY! I will not have to wake up so early in the morning starting from tomorrow *looks at clock* err, this morning, until the second of January! Oh, VIVA CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR! And I found out about my score for my first French test! 18.5 / 20, if I'm not mistaken! Second top in the class! I'm just so awesome. I lost to the one and only Russian in the class, who was... is... just très bien. Her speaking is definitely top notch and she has a Swiss(?) nationality boyfriend, so... well... duh, of course she would be THAT good. Not to mention she is very hard working... unlike a certain someone who is currently typing. *coughs throat* My second test, which was ~~yesterday~~ two days ago, was a lot harder. The writing part was just... blah! I didn't even study that much. Whatever...

HOLIDAY! Who cares about tests? I do.

This evening, a friend of mine who just came back from the US (for holiday), invited me to her late birthday dinner (her birthday was on October 31) and it was gooooooddddd! Super! I got to meet my friends and one of my most favorite teachers! Plus all those good food! Gee, I ate a lot... Seriously. It was a buffet kind of thing and amongst my friends, I was the one who went back and forth THE most. Like, 5-6 times. *shameless*

And I cannot wait to attend another of my friend's birthday dinner next year! She is turning 17! Gee, so jealous. Don't you think I'm kind of bad? I mean, they invite me to their birthday dinners / parties (okay, only one party, I can't help about me being such an anti-socialist, is it even a word?, to new people!), but I don't plan on having such things... D:

BTW, I wore the bracelets I bought (the ones I said in my previous previous previous post) today! Hah! At least I actually wear them. AND I LOVE THEM! ((: They make sounds and I love things that make sounds when I move! HAHAHA! I read somewhere that people who like wearing things that make sound are the type of people who like getting attention. Che, I am such an attention-seeker. BUT I LOVE THEM! *super happy*

I am really sleepy... This is what happens when your body is no longer trained to stay awake till morning... not exactly morning, like... 1-2 am. I feel like dozing off to sleep... Okay, bye.

2010-12-20T16:09:00.000+07:00

Early this morning, I woke up feeling happy because I thought I could go with my friends after the French class since last Saturday, I got okay-ed by my Mom. Then two things happened that pissed the hell out of me. Cause #1: I wore this shirt which was something my Grandma bought in HK and I thought it was mine. Apparently according to my Mom, it was my Brother’s and she forced me to change. It was not like my Brother knew about the shirt. And he would not fret over A T-shirt.Cause #2: My Mom changed her mind about letting me hung out after class (maybe she okay-ed kiddingly). She went and asked my Dad and my Dad started lecturing me about… things.

The reason was… both logical and illogical. Logical because… okay, I have to admit, it was VERY mean of those group of people to do THAT thing in the past. Illogical because, hello? Who the hell kept on shouting wanting equality without looking at skin color, religion, bla bla bla? Now what? We are being a racist OURSELVES? Gee, talk about irony. Not to mention generalization.

And, MOOOOOMMMM, who the hell said about “socializing should be done outside the house” (ex: hanging out somewhere??). Seriously, from the first time you said THOSE things, there have been something I have yet to understand. Now, how do you think I can “socialize” when I am not GIVEN the permission to actually… go out?! Wow, I am amazed at how ironic that statement and my Mom’s actions are. I am kind of being unfair. Let me correct that sentence, not “go out” in its entirety (I am not Rapunzel), but you know… hanging out with friends… All these times, I thought the problem was because my Dad was too lazy to pick me up, plus the traffic jam, and the non-existent private driver. Okay, I understood that. THIS TIME, on the other hand, there was a friend of mine who offered to drive me home… I was speechless. Wow…

This, my friends, is one of the reason of why I WANT TO / HAVE TO / WILL go abroad for my further studies. No bargaining with me on that.

Still don’t understand? It is because I feel like Rapunzel, only kind of worse. I mean, Rapunzel’s (Step)Mom clearly told her NOT TO go out, me? My Mom told me to go out without giving the permission. Like, when you see a very tempting chocolate (or any kind of food you like) and you are not allowed to take / eat it. Look, but not touch. What the hell.

2010-12-17T13:52:00.000+07:00

Remember the Carla Bruni songs I talked about in my previous post? Apparently, they help promote sleep!

Today is the last day the substitute Madam teaches me and my classmates. So... sad... Even with her being very enthusiastic, lately I have been dozing off in class. What if the teacher is the Madamoiselle?! I would be even more bored... ;_; Good thing my friends always help me shoo the sleepiness away! Else, I would be asleep... Or not. *still keeping up my good kid image* Che, such a hypocrite.

SOOOOOOOOO... I really don't know what else to post.

2010-12-15T22:57:00.000+07:00

I am currently listening to Carla Bruni, my friends. French songs! Hah! Aren't I so classy? I totally love the musics, they are so soothing! I do not about know the lyrics, though... I mean... the only things I could hear was... trois, je, tu, toi, and simple things like that. Hehe...

Today, after getting back from the French class, I went to the office and sulked all the way till I got home. All because my Mom did not want to accompany me to the mall... *coughs throat, I was so bored that time* and rather she asked me to do some work, which I did while putting up a very hateful look. I was being such a b****. Ck... I even rejected the offer of getting paid for doing the... data-inputting(?), paid per month... Err... That doesn't sound right. My Mom has to input all the data for the whole year and what she proposed me was to pay me for every month's data I input, which was a good deal because it was an easy (BUT SUPER BORING) job and the pay was... too good for such a simple job.

Anyway, to get me out of the bad mood, (I think it's about that time of the month AGAIN) my parents took me to the mall after taking my sister to her Aikido lessons (and yeah, she is still doing them). I finally tried this shirt I had been eying (wow, so the spelling for eye+ing is actually eying! hm...) since the first time I saw it. Pics while trying it on:

BUT! Problem is... *sob* the shirt is kinda plain w/o the skirt, you see... I think it's actually the skirt that makes it... pop. Mind you, the skirt is like... super short. Or maybe I am just too tall... *grins* Although somehow I get the feeling that I kinda look shorter when wearing the outfit... either my eyes are bad or I took the picture at the wrong angle... Hm... The more I look at it... the more... I WANT THE SHIRT! T_T There is a ribbon there in case if it cannot be seen in the photo... In the end, because the shirt is kinda pricey, I did not buy it, instead I bought some bracelets! The chance of me actually wearing the bracelets is very slim, though. I tend to buy things on impulse. Bad habit. :x ARGH! THE NEXT TIME I WENT TO THAT MALL AGAIN, I AM BUYING THE SHIRT! *unless I get into more dilemmas, which is most likely*

Fungichii tied with my... cardigan (actually my Grandma's then given to my Mom then I took it). Isn't it cute? The ribbon, I mean. Tee hee.

I almost finished Airhead Runaway! AH, there was Edward, then Seth and now Christopher! GAH! These authors are trying to drive me insane, I'm telling you! Not that I'm the sanest person around...

Traditional Books VS E-Books

2010-12-13T21:52:00.000+07:00

Hah! I have nothing to do! (Actually I have... lots... but, blah! Whatever... Sorry, Hapi Mari!)

It started this noon, after the French class. When that friend of mine I talked about, in the previous previous post, told me how he preferred reading books on his iPad. Which kind of made me want to buy an iPad for the sake of sliding it, since it was so... cute. (I know how weird my definition of cute is, do not bother criticizing.) And last Friday... *wait, Bruno Mars' Grenade is up, I HAVE TO sing along* Okay, so last Friday, another classmate of mine also talked about these e-books.

I have yet to lay my hands on e-book reader devices such as Kindle and (although it is also used for MANY other purposes,) iPad. I did consider begging my Dad to get me a Kindle, just because the thought of being able to integrate my love of reading books and technology into one excited me... a LOT (and I have some attraction towards Amazon). It was not as big as the urge I currently have to buy an HTC, though, so I did not pursue it any further. It was just how I would gladly accept a Blackberry if given and not going to beg for it. Now that I think about it, it as a good idea to not pursue the temporary lust, looking how I become so stressed out reading books in PDF version, although I am aware that those specialized devices might (most definitely) make it more bearable than a flat screen, unbent-able monitor.

Aside from the bad experience reading sample books in PDF format on my sometimes-unlovable computer, I just do not have the... passion to read books aside from its actual book version. When faced with an electronic device, I just always manage to find something else to do with it (which explains why sometimes I am just so slow in finishing my books). The feeling of actually holding a book and turning the pages is just irreplaceable. Not to mention, this... immense pleasure I always feel whenever I visit a bookstore, especially the one with a very big space and racks and racks of imported books with a very kind-of-dim-lighted-cozy ambient, I just cannot think of ever stop buying books in their original form. (There is the issue with the usage of paper and thus global warming, though.) I have yet to be able to find a way to stop myself from grinning so widely every time I enter those kinds of bookstores. (I sound like a freak... Not that I am usually not...) Being surrounded by books is, very, intoxicating!

Fragile Eternity

2010-12-13T20:01:00.000+07:00

That time I read New Moon, when Edward left Bella and Bella was feeling all depressed, I laughed at her. Seriously, I did not feel sad AT ALL. But when I read how Seth just went missing all so sudden, leaving Aislinn all sad, I shed tear. Hah! Edward, your power was not as strong as Seth! FAIRIES WIN!

Anyway, such a good book... Ah, I should quickly buy the next one, but I have lots of new books piling up! Dilemmas!

Seth was like even MORE romantic than Edward. Seriously. Gee, why the hell do I have to compare EVERYTHING to Edward. Maybe because those four books were the first books to captivate me ever so deeply... I mean, going as far to Kemang at 7 PM (when the next day I had to go to school), then finishing New Moon till 2 AM in the morning, just so that I could finally read more of Bella and Edward HAD to be called obsession, right? Although it has ended now ever since Robert Pattinson just manages to make me lose more and more of my love towards Edwards (not the words he spun, I have to praise Stephenie Meyer for that) each passing day. BUT Seth is even better than that! Ah, I have no protest, really. You are doing a great job, Melissa Marr!

Okay, I have to postpone whatever I promised to post in my last post till next time. For the time being, let me immerse myself in my own mind. And no, I am not autistic.

Substitute Teacher

2010-12-13T13:50:00.001+07:00

NEW TEACHER FOR THE WEEK! Such a right time too. I mean, I am already quite bored of the usual class teacher, although I know she is very nice and capable deep down in her heart. Apparently, my class teacher has to attend a seminar (VIVA SEMINAR!), so we had a substitute teacher. FYI, I am talking about my French class (again). This teacher, a Madame, was very capable. And FINALLY, someone who tells ME (and the other students) to use logic rather than memorizing. Yes, memorizing is easier, but understanding the concept actually makes memorizing MORE easier. (Which reminds me of my BEST Biology teacher EVER during Grade 9, Ms Emma!)

Anyway, I think the weather is getting warmer, at least for today, which means I can wear sleeveless! HAHAHA! Wearing sleeveless during cold days is just too much for me… And I kind of found a way to let my bangs down (I have been pinning it up for clearer vision) without it intruding my view. :D

Hmm… I thought of lots of things to post and now, the above are basically the only things I can remember. Rusty memory. Gosh!

Oh! I just bought three new books! (Manga, actually.) After class, one of my classmate in CCF showed me his book collection on his iPad, asking me which one I like / read (although I kind of do not see the point of asking me that question) and shoot… He has like… hundreds (? *super drama queen*) of books and I only knew very little of them. I guess, we like different kinds of books. Hmm… I did find Twilight Saga amongst them and Dan Brown (I miss Dan Brown! D:) and Paulo Coelho’s books (although I only read The Alchemist) and Jodi Picoult’s (so far I have only read Sister’s Keeper and Vanishing Acts is in my next-to-read-books list). Wow… my reading list sucks. Well, that is partly because I enjoy reading the books in its book form, rather than in the computer / electronic devices like that and because I tend to lose the interest to read RIGHT AFTER I buy the books. HAHAHA, so point is, I buy books to satisfy my need to buy something! LOL.

Okay, going to post under a different title about my thoughts of books…

Zombies / Mutants VS Heroes

2010-12-10T23:37:00.000+07:00

I am currently watching "I Am Legend." and it reminds me of this thought I had when I just watched another movie of the same kind, which I have to say, I do not like them. (Apparently my Mom LOVES them.) Silent Hill (which was one of the cause of my restless nights before), Resident Evil, and movies of the same genres. Where a small group of people tries to save themselves from getting devoured by used-to-be-humans-now-mutants.

My random thought during that time (it must have been one of those moments in the toilet where my mind wanders too much) was what if it actually happened in real life (may the world peace be kept all times), would I rather be the heroes or the mutants?

My first thought was, "Heck! Of course I would rather be the mutants!". Why? Because becoming the mutants would, in a sense, mean dead (what is life without mind?) and I would have so many friends! Ever heard of the movie genre with more humans less mutants? Which leads me to my next point. The mutant would (mostly) always be the antagonist, meaning all those mindless killing and my thought strayed to this karma I believed (still believe) in. What if becoming a mutant were the karma you were supposed to get and all those killings would add up to more bad karma? Hm... Endless pit of bad karma? Anyway,back to the main point, was it not weird, by the way, how those mutants were smart enough to detect who were their friends and who were the enemies? Because I have never heard of mutants attacking each other... Movies... sometimes they are just so illogical. *It is though, keeping myself in check to not stray from topics...*

Thinking about the bad karma, I thought what if I were the heroes? Would it not be even worse? I killed others / things consciously. And not all heroes got saved, right? Usually there would only be one or two people who survived all the havoc, sometimes there were none at all. Plus having to live in fear...

It got me to think more. Why did those people think of doing those things to start with? I am not saying that experimenting is bad, no. Without all those endless experiments by previous and current scientists, I would not be able to do this thing I am doing right now. But why is it that humans have this urge to hurt others? Will not the world be more peaceful if only everyone start doing things they want others to do to them and stop doing things they do not want to be done to them?

Then again, the basic human instinct was, is and (I think) will always be selfishness.

(The reason I do not really like writing this kind of post is that I am always confused as to what grammar I should use. Things I encountered in the past, thoughts I still have even know. The first one should be in past tense while the latter should be in present, right? And my English teacher told me to use only one type of tenses in a writing. Does it apply to ALL kinds of writing or are journals / diaries an exception?)

My Friend

2010-12-09T22:51:00.001+07:00

… said she is going to model for Make-Up Forever. How cool is that?

*This is so Twitter-for post*

Lux-Pain

2010-12-09T16:03:00.000+07:00

I think it was last year when I downloaded this game. I was drawn to its beautiful (enough) graphic and the kind of good music and I really love story-based games, especially the ones with more talking and less playing! HAHAHA! :D *I’m such a weirdo* Anyway, there was that one time when I was still using the emulator… I woke up early just to finish that game then I stupidly played a long time without saving and BAM! The emulator crashed and I lost the unsaved progress, which was… long… I was so sad and I did not even want to continue playing it anymore.

Last year, when my Mom finally bought my Sister the DS, I was like… “I am so going to play that game again!”. And today, my friends, finally! I FINALLY FINISHED THE GAME! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I am sooooo happy! I mean, I had been wondering how it would end. And it was kind of sad, the ending… So touching. Ah, now I can move on to the next game!

Contact Lens

2010-12-07T18:29:00.000+07:00

I have been planning to try one ever since... around last month., and today I finally braved myself to try it and... *drum rolls* I am currently using it. (; It feels so good not having to wear glasses! Although, I am kind of worried that my minus is gonna get even higher than it is now, because the brand I am wearing, Acuvue Moist Daily (or something like that), cannot have cylinder on the lens, so they had to raise the minus and the view is not as clear as when I am wearing glasses. It was fine outside, though, but in front of the computer, it looks kinda blurry... Anyway, I am soooo begging my Mom to get me these contacts.
Oh! Apparently I cannot even take naps while having contact lenses on. Which is bad, because I sleep in the car, so... so... it is bad... Putting it on was hard too... It took me tens of tries to finally be able to place it on. And the shop attendant looked pissed off... or maybe it was his normal face. Dilemmas! D:

My internet, as usual, is being such an a**. And my computer is acting up too. Maybe both of them are having a competition as to which can piss me off worse. Hah! Just wait for my revenge, dear Mr Computer and Mr Internet. I AM GONNA LEAVE YOUUUU! NEXT YEAR! JUST WAIT!

By the way, a few days ago / last week, I braved myself to send an email to HTC, to ask if I can use the phone in Japan, and the reply was kind of disappointing. The guy who replied my mail said that he was not sure or something... My hope was diminished by 50%. I should ask my senior who is currently there for further details about phones in Japan. I consulted Google, but the answers were mostly confusing...

And shoot! I just remembered that I have this assignment I have not been doing... I think it has been more than one month?! OMG. D: And it is one of my favorite manga, too. I mean, I am looking forward to reading the next chapter, then... I just realized, it all depends on me. I am the one in charge of cleaning that next chapter. Hah! I want the translation badly... T_T Sucky Japanese skill. OH! Maybe I should ask my teacher to translate it for me. OMG, I am so smart... But I am scareeeedddddddd!

Last Saturday (or two weeks ago?), when my piano teacher told me to choose songs I want to learn, I stumbled upon the song Iris. Ah, reminds me of the past! Youtube would not let me embed the video. STINGY!

Oh, How I Miss Not Doing Anything!

2010-12-06T21:00:00.000+07:00

(Aren’t my titles quite creative lately?)

Finally, after such long hours of endless studying (and playing in disguise of studying), yesterday I finally took my JLPT N4 test, which I predicted to fail… When I found out that I could not do the first two parts (out of three) of the test, the chance of passing by solely depending of luck just diminished. The listening part (the last part), on the other hand, was definitely NOT as scary as how I read on the internet. (Shoot! Internet lies!) I was only unsure on the last part of the listening test, the rest were mostly done with style. As much as I should have been being depressed because of how BAD I did on the test, what I felt was… relieve. Although the next series of things that happened pissed me off badly.

Done with JLPT, the next thing on my schedule would be studying for the French test before going to my friend’s Sweet 17 birthday party. First, the plan was for my Dad to drop me at my friend’s house and then I would just go with some other friends, BUT… change of plan. I ended up being in a hotel (which served SUPER YUMMY err… prawn with tofu skin, whatever the name of the food was) with my Mom and Dad did their business, and sulking on the sofa while trying to cram whatever I could for the next day’s French test. I even thought that the security, who checked the car for possibilities of bringing bombs, did not open my side of the car door (he opened my Mom’s) because of my VERY mean look. Hah! Take that!

When arriving at where the party was held, I was half an hour to one hour late, but it turned out that the party was just about to start. (Apparently, I had been sulking the whole journey to the venue for no reason.) Arriving at the ballroom (? well, not exactly a ballroom, it is usually a discotheque…? Okay, I am not sure about what the place actually IS…), the first thing I noticed was the very, very beautiful decoration. It was like… so beautiful! And the whole… (shoot! I cannot remember what is the English for this word I am going to write) err… program (thanks, Google Translate, I cannot believe that word did not cross my mind!) was very fun. I took part in the candle-holding thing and I frigging cried during that part where that friend of mine, who was celebrating her birthday, was told to tell what she wanted to tell her parents from the bottom of her heart. IT WAS SO TOUCHING! And it was very romantic when both her parents held a candle together and blew it! HAHAHA! Another friend of mine was like, “What the hell, Nike?”. LOL, I just could not help it! Good thing it was another friend of mine who stood besides me, so I could hide my face!

When it was time to go home, suddenly it was already 10 o’clock in the evening. Wow… While contemplating (what does this word exactly mean, really) how I would go home, even another friend of mine, Phoebe, offered me to drive me till this very close area near my house and I was like… o_o That was so unexpected! TANTE, MAKASIH YAAAAAAAA! *blush*

Arriving home around an hour later, I was SO tired. The next day… my eyes felt so heavy. Well, waking up at 5 in the morning then no nap AT ALL till 11 was just too tiring for me! Good thing the French test was held AFTER a 20 minutes break after 2 hours of class. Although, that most recent novel I bought (the one I told you about, Juwita!) basically took almost all of my attention, even in class! Oh, how I missed those moments of stealing time to read books in class during school! I ended up only studying a little in the morning before class started then reading the novel almost all the other time! Such miss-able high school moments!

The French test itself was… easier than I expected. I did quite good. Well, at least I should pass the required 10 out of 20 marks.

After the class, I quickly took my leave (not that I usually hang around after class was finished). After I reached home, I read some more, ate my lunch lazily (when I have this book I love, I just hate having to do something else, and yes, that includes eating!), then read some more in my room, and SLEEPING TIME! I woke up at around 7 in the evening, read the book till it was finished then directly went to my computer to write this post.

The book was… AMAZING! Mind you, my definition of amazing is actually romantic. HAHAHA!

Thanks for everyone who took part to make these two days of mine very amazing. For my beloved country to make tomorrow a public holiday. For my French teacher to NOT give any homework today. For my Mom and Dad who took me to the party and picked me up even at 10 o’clock at night. For my friends in French class who always make those classes so bearable. (Yeah, I maybe so frigging shy talking to new people, but I do listen… all the time! HAHAHA!) For Phoebe and her Mom, I still cannot get over how nice you guys are! *so touched* For the birthday girl for creating an event where I could meet my friends from school!

By the way, I just knew that there is actually “red carpet"s in Indonesia. I thought it was Hollywood stuffs…

(not re-reading, mistakes are most likely to be found)

Dreadful Weekend

2010-12-03T23:40:00.000+07:00

Yeah, what else can I call a weekend in which I have to study? JLPT on Sunday, French test on Monday... *sigh* I do not know what will happen to my JLPT. Like, I am kind of pessimistic about the outcome...OH! Or maybe I am so confident about the outcome that I am very calm right now. Hah! That must be it! *being optimistic*

WHAT THE HELL IS WITH MY COMPUTER TODAY?! FIREFOX LAGS LIKE HELL! I typed faster than the output appearing on the screen. Although looking at it is fun, you know... makes me feel like I am a super typist or something.

My tongue got burned (?) because I carelessly drank hot chocolate when it was still too hot too fast. It still hurt until now, although not as bad as during the afternoon. Then I bought a new novel and a Japanese-Indonesian dictionary this evening. I should have bought a Japanese-English one during that time I went to Kinokuniya.

OH OH OH! I also re-watched Slumdog Millionaire in the afternoon! Because the first time I watched it, the DVD was not the best quality (the whole movie was kind of dark), and not good enough subtitle, so I decided to download it yesterday (or is it two days ago?). Such a good movie. And I cried at the end... Triumphant moment always move me to tears.

And I change my mind. It is NOT fun at all. Such a laggy computer. Unbelievable. Maybe I should delete the Cookies or something... Ah, more research needed. I really am becoming such a... tech-blind. (I forgot the actual word for it...)

I cannot seem to finish this Sophie's World book, really. Maybe I should free a day of mine then read it till the end. Although I am sure that the content will be forgotten by the time I finish the book if I do it that way. (Not that I will remember the details of the book even if I take time reading it.) I am so curious as to what actually is happening to the main character. Che... If it is a normal (read: romance) novel, I will go directly to the last page and see what happens.

Such a n00b post, really! As suggested by a friend of mine, I really should start writing something that makes people think... of something. Ah, diminishing writing skills...

FINALLY! A Back-Up Plan!

2010-12-02T17:14:00.000+07:00

Started yesterday, when my Japanese teacher suddenly brought up the topic about my back-up plan if (hopefully not) I fail to receive the scholarship (seriously, hopefully I do get it!). She also told me about the wrecked-ness of the University of Indonesia based on the experience of one of her students. And how that student was rejected when she wanted to apply for the Monbukagakusho because she was too smart (apparently she won a gold medal for the Biology Olympics and the one who took her report card when she wanted to take the form said that she should give others a chance and such).

This morning, the senior at my old school, who is now my classmate in French class, told his experience about being an entrepreneur, err... earning his own money by being an entrepreneur. Then a thought came up.

Speaking about the worst case that can happen, if I were to fail in getting the scholarship, I would somehow beg my Dad to pay for language school in Japan since currently I have this feeling of HAVING TO go to Japan. While in language school, I would, somehow, earn enough money to go to Swiss and study Hospitality Management. Hah! How about that for my current goal! (8 Now, the problem is HOW. *sigh*

More French (I know, I don't have other things to do, BEAR WITH ME!)

2010-12-01T14:36:00.000+07:00

The date is out, guys. My first French test will be on Monday, RIGHT AFTER my JLPT. And I was hoping I could do some gaming (I miss my DS) after JLPT, apparently not.

This morning, I found out some misconception about people ON me. Seriously, studying everyday? Going to church EVERY WEEK? Wow... I do not go to churches and until now I seem to always be able to come up with various reasons to skip going to the vihara every Sunday.

Let me clarify... (Although I am 90% sure that the readers of my blog are my friends who already know my true habit... ~~I am finding excuses to write decent post, ok?!~~)

When I was at school, yeah, I did have a Math-Physics-Chemistry tuition thrice every week (everyday if there were going to be tests and the last few months before the National Exams). I did NOT study at home, unless there would be a test the next day (I did study Biology for the whole week before the National Exam on the subject). Now... just because I am studying languages, which I LOVE, it explains the sudden diligence. (;
I read decent (by decent, I mean knowledge-full and kind of useful) books... rarely. I think the decent books I have ever read are only the Chinese Cinderella books, Jodi Picoult's My Sister's Keeper (which made me wept like a baby, or... not) and Sophie's World, which I am currently reading. The rest? Yeah, they are in English, but they are all romance. Sometimes I just read good books in public just to make me look smart... *coughs throat* Oh! And Dan Brown's books are so awesome! :D
And I am NOT as religious as that one guy think, okay? Sometimes, I seem to find holes in all those religious statements and make retorts in my mind. Although I am very biased about my own religion (super ruined grammar and I do not think I am using the right word). You know, skipping the illogical details...
Also, I am not as nice as that ONE guy think. Like, never doing anything bad or something... Gee, I am NOT a Saint, for Pete's sake. I read ~~smuts~~... err... err... okay, the rest are not as bad as that one... ~~*more like, not suitable for public confession HAHA*~~

There you go!

OH! One more thing... I AM NOT A GENIUS. Jesus Christ! First of all, getting good marks in THAT school is NOT hard. You just need a little bit of diligence and good connection with teachers (I am a hypocrite, if you do not know that by now, although I do have teachers I genuinely want to be nice with) and a weeny bit of luck. Second, geniuses do not just GET good marks. Me, on the other hand, JUST get good marks. There are differences, you know... between being genius and diligent. And it pisses the hell out of me when someone says I am a genius. ~~(Although most of the time I enjoy the praises... *low life*)~~

2010-11-30T17:51:00.000+07:00

*thinking...* I should post something... other than about my French lessons. *think harder*

Okay, fine. Lately my life revolves around that one thing, anyway.

This morning, before going to the where I had my tuition, I went to my friend's house to borrow her old (still very much new, actually) French dictionary and conjugation book. And good thing I did, because during today's class, for some reason, the teacher kept on giving new vocabularies. Then before the class ended, she gave us an assignment to talk about what we do after work / during weekend / vacation tomorrow. Which means, tomorrow I will have to open my secret about me being a... what is that word... hermit, staying in front of the computer 90% of the time. *sigh* Sad life... I also borrowed two kiddies books (I read one and only understood bit by bit, so pathetic) and a DVD (titled Paris, I think it is about dancing or something, I just picked one from the rack which seemed interesting) which I have yet to watch.

I managed to watch Easy A till the end (skipping the lagging part... T_T) before my Japanese teacher came this afternoon. Such a good movie! (: Funny... a little bit sad... VERY entertaining.

My current have-to-watch-DVDs-list: Paris, The Social Network, Inception (I know I am so late), Wall Street 2, Eat Pray Love, Grey's Anatomy (I am so sorry Mr Stevanus Pangestu Setiawan), and a mountain of Ines's DVDs (which I have borrowed for about 2 years, at most... or least...). You see, I have this disease of borrowing / buying DVDs I want to watch then ignore them completely when I get them... I feel so guilty... ._.

THE Weekend

2010-11-28T18:50:00.000+07:00

The long awaited weekend is about to end without anything too exciting ever happening. Except if the SUPER bad mood swings count.

This morning, I should have had some activities. There was that recycling thing with the Tzu Chi foundation, which I skipped, because by the time I arrived it was already 9 AM (started at 8 AM) and there were so many people so I kind of thought it was quite embarrassing to enter. *Reasons, reasons...* The next thing on schedule was visiting a mall where there was an HTC outlet. I was thinking of seeing the model phone of HTC Desire Z (yes, I am aiming for that one now), but alas... (this is what you get for ditching social work for lame reason) the store was closed. Not to mention, I discovered that my Mom apparently limited my phone usage. I was in my 74k something, then the operator would not let me make calls because my credit limit was at 75k. Basically turned me into a sour person for almost the whole day (at least until I arrived at home this afternoon).

By the way, while leaving this tab open, thinking of what I should write next, I was reading this, and... shoot! I am not that "ex-best friend" right?! I mean, I could feel the... hatred through that one sentence. And my browser is lagging so much... So hateful.

And I just wrote a very long comment for one of my friends' post. So proud of myself! HAHAHA!

TGIF!

2010-11-26T21:09:00.000+07:00

Finally! I will have some free time (not having to learn either French or Japanese). By the way, today, I went home from CCF by myself. Err, to my Dad’s office to be precise, because my driver had somewhere to go. And it was still fun, riding the Busway, that is. After arriving at my destined station, I walked walked and walked and I, for the first time ever, rode the blue, AC-less car by myself. Then more walking, then, voila! I arrived at the office safe and sound.

And today my runny nose was being as runny as ever. Like, so bad. Even the one who sat beside me in French class said, “Bad bad flu, eh?”. Good thing I bought that… pack of tissue a few days ago. I needed constant flow of tissue-ing the whole day. My Japanese teacher even went home earlier saying, “You better go eat then take medicine then go sleep. I’ll come back another time.”. (Although I guess, it was because she did not want to catch my flu or she had something to do.) To add to that runny nose, my throat was not in its best condition, too. Gee, I think this is all because I did too much studying and not enough sleep. Having to wake up at 5 AM is just… too bad…

I, at last, started learning the grammar in my French class. The whole thing is becoming more bearable, I should say. I just cannot stand how some people smoke too much. If only those cigarettes were smoke-les... Then again, if they were, it would not be called “smoking”.

France

2010-11-23T14:50:00.001+07:00

Second day of the class, and it was easier than the first day… kind of… And finally, the teacher taught some grammars. By the way, did I write about something like a senior of mine in high school joined the class too? Yeah, there was. And he said he was planning to go to Swiss to take hospitality in January. I… am so… jealous. Che. The people in the class were all very nice and friendly. Plus there was a Russian there. She was pretty. Blonde hair! :D The class was introduced to the library (it was called Mediatheque, with an e accent aigu for the second e, if I was not mistaken [too lazy to search symbols]) and I was thinking that I should become a member. The library was so cool! And there were comics! HAHAHA! (Basically, those were two main reasons why I wanted to join.)

I am postponing my last baking class, for the sake of my JLPT. Plus, so that I can take the test together with my friends. Oh! Apparently, a friend of mine I told you about, the one planning to go to Japan, also started taking French! Such a coincidence! And my Japanese language teacher also wanted to learn French… or German, either one. Such a studious teacher.

… … … So far, I only have that to write… Err… Bye!

Lots of Things

2010-11-22T21:34:00.000+07:00

Bonjour! My first four hours and my head was spinning all around. Is that how you teach French or did I just land myself an inexperienced teacher? I mean, she did not ONCE explain why is that spelled that way or... sheesh... This is gonna be some long long two months. But this French course gave me a reason to purchase an a ~~unbelievably expensive for such a thin~~ Maruman notebook. Well, I just came back from the bookstore, which original purpose was to buy some cheap files and notes for these two months, damn that too eye catching Maruman. I ended up buying two notebooks, though. The Maruman one just to satisfy my *cough* guilty pleasure *cough* of buying expensive things (the good thing about having the blue card is that your Mom does not really care what you use it for), then a cheaper and thicker one for taking notes.

The Maruman one is the orange one. Actually, there's another version to the note, which is the yellow one. On the cover page is "Le Luna"(?) I think it's the French for Moon... Is it Luna? I think it is Luna. Err... whatever. And NO. I did not buy the book because there was some French writing, whatever it meant, on the cover. It was because of the dual colour... I know, I just have stupid reasons for buying things.

More pictures! By the way, the new Photobucket kind of confused me. Che, everything started becoming more and more confusing ever since the arrival of Facebook. (Which translates as: My will to learn new things started to diminish ever since the arrival of Facebook.)

THAT, has to be the cutest package I have ever seen. Okay, I know I do not see enough... (I asked Mom to buy one, but she said, "Too expensive... And I'm not using it.")

Mom fed my Dad in the car. That was just so romantic!

Spongebob wall clock! My Mom got it as a freebie from shopping at a supermarket. It is currently hung on my room's wall. I asked for Patrick, but the Manager said that there was no Patrick version. I felt so sad, seriously.

This, my friend, was what I talked about in Twitter. Originally, I wanted to free Polgie (originally Froggie) from Mom, but in the end, I hurt him... badly.

My first postcard and it just have to be about JLPT. WHY?! Someone send me a greeting postcard NOW. Che... French, I will conquer you after I am done with this JLPT thingy! JUST WAIT! I WILL! *motivated*

2010-11-21T19:39:00.000+07:00

Ah, I have been wanting to post, but somehow it would be either there was something wrong with the internet or Rune Factory 3 distracted me. Reasons, reasons... For some reason, reasons just appeared out of thin air. Ckckck...

Last Thursday, my Mom and I went to CCF to pay for the registration and tuition fee. The class will start on Monday on 8 am. Finally, I will have to wake up early!

The progress of my studying for JLPT N4 sucks. And it is all because of Rune Factory 3. Seriously.

2010-11-17T23:37:00.000+07:00

"I would like to be President. On my Inauguration day, just like this, I will dance with my wife. Would you like to dance with me?" Omo! I did shout... to the wrong person. (I thought it was my Mom entering the room, and it turned out that it was my Dad.) HAHAHA! And it reminds me of, *still* "I will love you forever - every day of forever, will you marry me?"

Today, I woke up at six, only to hear the bleating sound of a goat. The kind of bleating which I translated as "Help! Help!". Seriously, that tone almost made me shed tear. It sounded so... sad and desperate. Mr. Goat-ie, may you rest in peace.

Last Monday, I went to CCF and my Parents allowed me to take the course! I think I will be taking the intensive course (four hours a day, five days a week) which will take two months to finish a level. At least, if I come to not like the language, I will be done in two months.

Onrop! Musical Review

2010-11-14T22:51:00.001+07:00

I just got home from watching the show. I was amazed. It was… magnificent.

The storyline was quite unique, although the beginning was kind of dragged on. The lighting was SUPER awesome. Like, seriously beautiful. The setting! Gee, WHERE CAN I GET THAT GLITTERING PINK TREE?! I WANT IT! The actors and actresses, they were… superb. My favorite were Ario Bayu. He was one of the main casts, the assistant of the main actor, but he was just amazing. He basically shone on the stage. And he got the most clap from the audience at the end too! (; Then Canti Widyadhari. She was really into both her roles. When she was supposed to be shy, she was really shy, then when it was her part to be… so… I need my dictionary… rampant, she was so so so so cool. Priscilla Dorothy was awesome too. She was part of this Ultra Vixen casts (there were four people, including her) and there was this part where she was behind the three others, but she really grabbed the attention. Maybe because she was the whitest? My teacher… Well, he was good, although not the best. But I was really proud! (: The orchestra and the music was amazing toooooo! Awww, I wanna re-watch! D: If someone were to pay me to watch with him / her, I would. (8
Good thing I wore quite nice clothes, if not weird, because the visitors were… Shoot, some of them wore those shoes and clothes and bags I have been drooling over. Che, I was so jealous. And I got to see some… celebs. There was Sara Sechan (?) although my sister said that she was not, but I was sure that she was. Then Bayu Oktara, knew him because I have been so into O’ Channel lately. And there were others, but I did not know their names… Or at least, I thought I saw them… somewhere…
What I wore: (+ the little black bag + the wedges I wore to my graduation ceremony, my wardrobe sucks, I know) And the more I look at the picture, the weirder it gets… Good thing I did not meet anyone I knew. *I care so much about what people I know think about me*

Picture of my sister in front of the theater. It was very beautiful inside, like those in the movies. HAHAHA! I know, my experience sucks.
And tomorrow I am going to go check out CCF then to the cooking class (I stopped sulking because my Mom said she was touched by the birthday card I made, I go easy on my sulking after being praised, bribe-able, I know) and the Korean one just looking around and ~~praying-so-hard-that~~ *coughs throat, keeps her cool* hopefully my Mom and Dad would let me register. (:

By the way! From tonight onwards, I go back to sleeping in my own room with my sister. (I had been sleeping with my Mom, FYI.)

Mom's Birthday Part II

2010-11-12T21:21:00.002+07:00

She said she was touched! So waking up till 2 AM was worth it. Aw, I am so happy! (;

Mom’s Birthday

2010-11-12T09:38:00.001+07:00

I finished it at 2 AM! And the gold thingy was supposed to be a ribbon… or something, but I suck, so it turned out into something… unexplainable. The cupcake is like the most beautiful thing in the card! HAHAHAHAHA! I took it somewhere on DeviantArt (I am sorry for not asking permission to use the lovely picture! D:) and a poem from www.poemsource.com (If I am not mistaken). Actually, it was supposed to be the thingy which has to be opened to view the message, but I stupidly pasted it in such a way that it would be upside down if the card was opened. I knew something was off when I was tidying the edges! Ah, this kind of thing always happens in crucial time! Che.

It was something I had not done in years! I mean, I cannot remember the last time I did craft. (Although this one was just cutting papers then write on it.) Good thing my Mom always save all those papers, so I could use it. (8 Also, I would like to thank my Mom’s driving license. It saved me from saying ‘Happy Birthday’ on the wrong day (I thought it was on the 11th, thanks to my dumb phone [for ringing because I inserted Mom’s birthday on the 11th], it should have known that it was wrong! I should buy a smart phone,) and when I was unsure about my Mom’s age this year. (;

This morning, I planned to go to the office then went to visit the cooking class I told you about yesterday, but yesterday afternoon, my Dad said that the place was too far and “NO WAY!”. So I am in the middle of sulking by not going to the office. (Even after my Mom offered to still go the the place to look around.) Hah! You are so going to miss my presence in the office. I may not help AT ALL, but I enlighten the mood! HAHAHAHA! (By which I mean, I disturb Mom… almost all the time.)

Happy!

2010-11-11T18:31:00.000+07:00

I finally went and bought the tickets (see previous post)! Although I have yet to get the actual tickets (I only got the purchase receipt), so I cannot take a picture yet. (:

And I finally found a cooking class which I will visit tomorrow, to... look around and hopefully register. I mean, I really need it seeing how... bad my cooking skill is.

Err... if it is possible, I am also thinking of taking French class at CCF, which is the abbreviation for... Culture Center of France...? (I just made that up, although I think it is something like that, in French, though.) And waiting for a new class to open for Accounting class. (:

Onrop! Musical

2010-11-08T21:36:00.001+07:00

The first time I saw the commercial on TV. I fell in love at first sight. I just had the feeling 'I HAVE TO watch this!'. Too bad I did not caught the title during the first time I saw the ad. Just now, I finally got to see the ad again and tada! Google rocks.

And... while browsing through the cast, I found out that my teacher at my (ex) school was in it! That was like, so cool! Now, can I ask him for tickets? Is it rude? I mean, I will pay... err... AH! Too bad I was not too close to that teacher. D: AH! I just got an idea. Facebook. Gosh, at times like these, I just LOVE Facebook so much.

More info, click here.

EDIT: I cannot find the Facebook profile! ARGH. D:

Night Out

2010-11-07T20:58:00.000+07:00

So, right after arriving home from the date with my friends, the whole family went out for dinner. After dinner was done, my Mom asked for the bill and a waitress came over to our table to deliver the bill. While my Mom was checking the bill, our (mine and the waitress's) eyes met and she smiled, I smiled back. My Mom told my Dad to use his credit card to pay the bill when my Dad asked why the waitress kept looking at our way (my Dad and I sat next to each other). The waitress grinned sheepishly and said, "Uh... that... The Miss is beautiful." LOL. That was so funny! That made my day! AHAHAHAHAHAHA! I love being praised.

Meeting with Friends

2010-11-07T17:07:00.000+07:00

Finally! After months! (:

Some of them just changed too much! Or maybe it was just that because I chatted a lot with Phoebe and Ribka and thus I did not feel like they change THAT much. Hm... Anyway, it was quite fun, although I had to go home early since my Dad was done with his business.

2010-11-07T08:39:00.000+07:00

Something... I was thinking of posting about something... AH!

Yes, last night, when (I thought) everyone was asleep, I started wondering out loud to myself about things (to help shoo my fright for... things). When I got back to my Mom's room (where I was currently sleeping), apparently my Mom was awake. Then she asked me who I was talking to. I said something like, "Huh? Talking to whom? Huh? No one lah... By the way, Mom, I cannot seem to find the tweezers. Where do you think it went?" Shoot. I got found out.

And my tweezers is really gone. This is the second time. According to my Mom, I had found it before, but now I cannot seem to remember where I put the damn tweezers. --a

Moi Day

2010-11-06T22:53:00.000+07:00

This day was actually the day I anticipated so much. I had been wanting to go to the Tzu Chi Center for socialization (which was held every first Saturday of each month) as one of the requirement to become a volunteer. And... tada! I finally went there today. (:

I did not come on time, though. A little part of the presentation had already passed when I came. But, I have to give a big round of applause for whoever made that background music for the short movie about the history of the charity organization. I almost shed tear... And blah blah blah, lots of talking then they distributed a sheet of form to fill. I filled it then we got to try doing this... sign language for a song. Beautiful song.

Before going home, my Mom and Dad took me somewhere to buy a gift for a friend of mine who invited me to her moving-into-a-new-house-party.

It was fun there. She introduced me to some of her close friends and they were nice people! Too bad I had to go soon because I had to go for my piano lessons, which I should have just skipped. *sigh* And I did not get to taste the coconut pudding. *disappointed* I hate missing free things... By the way, her house was beautiful, but too big, though. I mean, I was only there for 1-2 hours and I was exhausted... I just could not imagine living in a house so big like that... But the main lamp in her room was just awesome. It was almost like the red candelabra Sita wanted.

On the way home from my piano lesson, though, I suddenly felt soooo tired. D:

Then, something annoying happened at home.

But again... tomorrow I will get to meet my school friends! Ahh, I miss them! (:

2010-11-05T18:09:00.000+07:00

Ah, I should have posted this yesterday, but things came up and... (:

I finally went bought all those books yesterday. Too bad I could not find any guide books for the JLPT test.

Err... Actually yesterday I wanted to post about lots of things, but...

Blah. Till next time.

Just Read

2010-11-03T22:01:00.000+07:00

Phoebe's newest post.

And I remembered that moment when my friend told me that her heart skipped a beat when she read my blog post about me not getting a call for the test (back then, before Friday). :o

Friend's News

2010-11-03T22:00:00.000+07:00

Carissa moved her blog to Tumblr! And yes, I ditched my tumblr a few months ago, but seeing her makes me want to go back... Che, she always makes me jealous. Now I just need to know where she got those beautiful pics & layouts. Ah, but I love my blog's URL. By the way, babe, me going to Japan is still undecided, although I am keeping my fingers crossed. (;

And my internet is pissing the hell out of me.

City Hall

2010-11-03T21:31:00.000+07:00

Lately I have been engrossed in this Korean drama (title above) aired in my most favorite TV station (because of the undubbed K-dramas, even though the sub does not cover all the needed translation). Some pictures I found after Google-ing:

Why? I do not actually know why... It is just that I have a thing for politics. And not to mention, I love charismatic guys. The main guy character is not the most handsome person, but... he wear suits... and... I love suits! *freak* Anyway, the story (so far) is very interesting, touching (at some parts) and motivating (most of the time). Not to mention, the budding romance! Ah, I am thinking of buying the DVD...

Wait, maybe I should take something related to politics as my major! *thinks about all the possible events occurring* Err, maybe no.

By the way, tomorrow, if all goes well, I am finally going to Kinokuniya! I want to buy all those novels I want (Sophie's World, Vanishing Acts, Fragile Eternity, Airhead Runaway, The Sorceress, and The Mysterious Benedict Society Prisoner's Dilemma) and browse (buy if there is any) for some guide books for my upcoming JLPT N4 test. Ah, can't wait!

And my Mom is currently so into Hana Yori Dango. I have to say, the story is MUCH MORE logical to the Korean version. If only the actors are as... tempting...

The Day Has Yet to End,

2010-10-30T18:10:00.000+07:00

but I am feeling so eff-ing pissed off.

There was this problem with my sister. Yes, again. Why the hell did she have to bring the DS when she went to her tuition? Yesterday, I installed this learning Japanese game (to help me with my upcoming JLPT) and wanted to learn from there. So, she just ruined my plan. And I am super pissed off with her. SUPER. It was like... so fucking annoying.

And there was this my dad who kept on pestering me to take that major.

And my parents who teased me because I chatted with Ribka. I mean, it was my dad's fault that he logged on to my MSN and then of course it was normal that Ribka called me on MSN, like usual. And it got annoying when he started saying, "Ribka! Ribka!". Got me like, "WTH?". Then when I went out to take my bath, my mom suddenly said, "Tuh si Ribka." (which somehow = "That's Ribka!"?). It was sooooo annoying. Now I know why my brother does not want to tell who he associates with.

Phoebe's Self-Made Video

2010-10-29T22:48:00.001+07:00

Shoot, now I feel like crying.

SPOT ME, SPOT ME, SPOT ME! *although there are only a few pictures which include me*

The Future

2010-10-29T22:28:00.000+07:00

Now I know why some of my friends cried when talking about all these university / college thingies. Because I did feel like wanting to cry when my Dad was pushing me to take... surveying in HKU. I was kind of pissed off because I was forced to take the major I had never knew it existed nor did I have any interest in it. And when I am pissed off, I just feel like crying. Sheesh...

The talk came up because of my Japanese teacher, who talked about me having to prepare a back-up choice with my father. Then my father got so fired up (again) about Hong Kong University, so he took another look at the site and decided that I should take this... Bachelor of Science in Surveying.

And I got in a bad mood.

Even after I bought a book I wanted to read since watching the "Kick Andy" talk show.

*sigh* MEXT chose me as one of the scholarship recipient! Please, please, please, please!

Now, I think both my parents are against me taking Hospitality. I mean, I planned to take it in Swiss after saving up in Japan... Well, I CAN dream.

Disasters, Disasters…

2010-10-29T18:38:00.001+07:00

The volcano and then the tsunami, and more volcano eruptions are expected(?). Let us just hope that the about to come (hopefully not) eruptions will not cause further victims.

Best wishes for all the victims.

The Envelope

2010-10-29T12:59:00.000+07:00

Just arrived a few hours ago and it contains the detail of my Japanese Language Proficiency Test (JLPT). My teacher registered my name for the test around last month and... I just realized the dreadfulness of the N4 level. And I am still wondering as to why my teacher did not just put me in the N5 level... And now I am kind of freaking out. Err... I should buy a guide book or something. (Yes! A reason to buy books!)

Wish me luck! The test will be on December, by the way.

GINGER BREAD! HAHAHA! Up close, the... thing (which was meant to be plants) look like... err... sorry, shit. This was taken right after I finished making it, though. Currently, the... plants... are shapeless. And good thing I took the picture before I went home, because on the way home, my sister kept on poking the sugar at took a bit of them and ate them... continuously. The house was made from ginger bread and for the decoration, it was something named royal icing (egg white mixed with SUPER LARGE amount of icing sugar and a tiny bit of lemon juice) and the pine trees were decorated ginger cookies, leftovers from someone who made and did not want it. It took around 8-10 hours decorating the whole thing. And resulted in my feet aching at night.

Step Up 3

2010-10-28T17:36:00.000+07:00

Watched it this morning and... it did not make me want to dance. Ckckck...

So nah... I do not like it... Just a bit, but err... not really.

More… Dreams…

2010-10-28T09:56:00.000+07:00

I do not know why lately I seem to be woken up by dreams…

#1) I woke up at six because of this… dream… of me being mad at someone from my baking class. Like, really mad. Because he would not let me bake something I really wanted (others did), so I got so angry that I shouted at him and not letting him tell me the reasons. Kind of ended when he changed the topic and talked to someone else. But he was really annoying in the dream. Ckckck… And I got this feeling of refreshment when I woke up. Finally… After all those months! I got to shout at someone else! HAHAHAHAHAHA…

#2) This one was just now. I fell asleep again, then woke up because of the freakish dream. I dreamt that I finally got to Tokyo. I think I were an exchange student because there were some Westerners. One of the Westerners told me about this place to see at the basement of someplace. So, Phoebe, Ribka and me went to the building where the basement is located then went down the escalators. When we reached the ground level, though, suddenly all of the lights started to go off. It was a kind of mall and it was closing, so the lights from the shops went off. We were disappointed then went back to where we stayed. The whole road was… dark. We reached our staying place then suddenly heard something from the back of the building. We went to check. And Phoebe and Ribka left me alone. At that time, I was in a phone conversation with one of my uncles. I got scared then told him. He asked me why and told me to look at my left. I… saw a figure… A human body with a camera face. Shouted to the top of my lungs, only to discover that it was my uncle, covering his face with his camera. And he was laughing… out loud.

Grandpa

2010-10-27T14:15:00.000+07:00

Last Sunday, my grandfather came back to this country and… tada! He brought back Coles Dark Chocolate and Nestle Aero for me! (Err… for my family…) Usually he brought back Ferrero Rocher’s (I am not sure about the spelling) or Guylian (?), the shell chocolates. And my mom and I tasted the Coles’ & Nestle’s chocolate and they are uh-mah-zing! Hihi… So happy… The Aero mint chocolate is super amazing and very beautiful green color too!

…

Err…

That… is all.

Happy Morning

2010-10-26T07:53:00.001+07:00

I woke up at… a little before 7. This time it was because of the lame dream of… being hungry then begging my Mom to cook me instant noodles. (Yeah, I want it THAT badly.) In the dream, I was going downstairs because my Mom finally agreed to cook me one, by then I was starving till my stomach felt so empty, when I heard the wardrobe being closed. I opened my eyes then heard my Mom signature footsteps and movements, then said, “Mm…” *too lazy to say Mom* and got ignored, twice. (Well, who the hell would reply to an ‘Mm’.) So I gathered my strength then called Mom. She then replied, “What?”. Then I said, “Mom, I’m so hungry… cook me the instant noodle…” beg-fully. Mom sighed a bit, “With the soup? And egg?”. Then I nodded happily (Mom was at the bedside). ‘Ahhh, finally’, I thought. Mom went downstairs and… turned out that there was only two packets left and there were two housekeepers. Then she offered cooking me spaghetti. After a few minutes of sulking to myself, I finally shouted, “Fineeeeee!”, then more sulking cause my Mom could not hear me clearly, making me repeat the ‘Fine’ only to walk out of bed, hugging my Fungichii, drink some water and repeat another ‘Fine’ then my Mom thinking that I would cook it on my own. Thinking that my Mom was cooking me the spaghetti, I went back to the bed… More moments passed while I was cursing my housekeeper in my heart for not telling Mom that the stock of the instant noodle was diminishing. The sound of a car in front of my house piqued my interest. ‘Strange… Dad never turn on the car while waiting.’ I went downstairs curiously and found out (after asking the housekeeper and looking around) that my Mom was gone. I got like, ‘Whaaaaaatttt?? I thought she was cooking me spaghetti!’ I hurried back upstairs to turn on my phone (to phone my Mom and sulk endlessly). Good thing my phone was a slowpoke. (Turning it on took ages…) I heard the front door being opened then my Mom’s footsteps following it. She shouted from downstairs, “Get down RIGHT NOW.” I ran downstairs (this time without Fungichii) then there they laid on the table, the ultimate things to end my days of longing. “There! I bought it already. Don’t forget to change the water to cook the eggs,” I heard my Mom spoke. A grin reached my mouth.

Finally got the chance to eat instant noodles… Ah…

By the way, I just found out that I seemed to have some attraction to my Mom’s bolster. For some reason I still have yet to figure out, every time I woke up, I seemed to be hugging my Mom’s rather than mine! Unbelievable. Yesterday, mine was on the floor and me hogging Mom’s bolster all to myself. Then, I thought that, ‘Ah, must be a replacement for my fallen bolster.’. This morning at four (I woke up because of the unstoppable urge to go to the toilet) I was hugging my Mom’s again, but mine is with my Mom. So I prefer my Mom’s than mine? And all this time I thought I loved mine so badly…

(First paragraph was not checked. Excuse the grammars.)

French Twist

2010-10-25T21:19:00.000+07:00

YAY! I finally managed to do a French Twist (using chopsticks) myself! (Originally, I just wanted to put up my hair using the chopstick, though...)

It is all thanks to this video:

I have watched some other videos, but I think they are more suited to hair longer than mine, so I could not seem to succeed using their ways. This one, on the other hand, is... perfect! (Although it took me so much tries before I finally can do it...)

But I am so happy!

By the way, I just watched this video about falling in and out of love. By Mario Teguh.

This Morning

2010-10-24T17:00:00.000+07:00

At around 6 am.
I was awoken by the sound of my sister's phone alarm. (Why the hell did she have to move into the room?)
Then my sister's SUPER annoying whining voice. (I felt like talking the sense out of her.)
Caused by my Mom trying to talk her out of wearing whatever she was wearing.
Then got "hit" by my Dad, who was trying to kill a mosquito... and the mosquito managed to run away. (You could have just shoo-ed it by waving your hands, Dad.)

What a way to start the day... (Although I went back to sleep after a while, then woke up at 11.)
I was pissed off... badly.

Err, Sorry for the... Posts

2010-10-24T01:57:00.000+07:00

But I want to say something (finally) unrelated to SoEul.

Ribka is having her mid semester tests starting tomorrow! All the best wishes for her. I really hope everything goes well for her! That is directed not only for her tests, but also for her life and future! (; Arrrghh, I love you, babeeee! Ahahahahahah!

And my current life. In case any of my readers is wondering.
My current activities include the pastry making class, the Japanese lessons, English lessons and... I think that is all. (Sad life...)
The pastry making class is about to end after five more sessions, but I am prolonging them by having the class only once a week (usually it is twice a week).
And I think it is going great with my Japanese lessons. Aside from the teacher giving me a hell lot of kanji to memorize. (This is the rare moments that I am so grateful I learnt Mandarin.) Not to mention she enrolled me in the Noryokushiken Level 4 test, which... err... I have not even taken Level 5! Anyway, I think I am quite diligent in my Japanese studies, though. I mean, I never reviewed my lessons before with any other subjects (except Maths).
English lessons are fun, as usual, for the Thursday sessions, but Mondays... well, so-so. Lately, me and a friend of mine there talk a lot about k-dramas too. And she is a maniac, I am telling you. But it is fun! Ahahahhaha, she is like my teasing subject besides Phoebe. HAHAHA.
The late night internet sessions have been going on more often than before too. Such a bad habit, but I really have fun doing it, which is why it is so hard to drop it. Oh, I finally got Adobe installed on my computer! After such a long timeeeee! It was so inconvenient during those rare moments when I needed Photoshop.

Last but not least, Ines recently offered me to take AutoCAD lessons with her. So I think I am going to have a new activity soon. And I am also thinking of signing up to be a volunteer at a charity organization, Tzu Chi. Just hoping that my dad will let me do it. He rejected my request of participating in a meditation retreat recently. T_T

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2010-10-24T01:38:00.000+07:00

Ahh! I found the after stories! And of course, the first one I watch is Yi Jung's. *coughs throat* (I think I am having a sore throat soon, by the way. My throat started feeling uncomfortable.) And he is so romantic. Aww, I am a sucker for romantic stories. (As if anyone cannot see that by now...)

And a fan-made video which song is just way too cool!

SoEul

2010-10-24T00:36:00.001+07:00

Blame mommy! It is all because of her that I am currently freaking out over Yi Jung x Ga Eul couple (again).

My favorite scene EVER:

There is just something lacking. STUPID YI JUNG, RUN AFTER HER! RUUUNNNN! OH MY GOD. After finally Ga Eul stop chasing after Yi Jung and the guy finally realizing his love towards her, whyyyyyyyyyy?? Whyyyy?? Do you not know how to chase after a girl, you stupid Yi Jung?! *cries* The scene I love most in movies / manga / novels tainted by Yi Jung not having the ability to run...

MAKE A MOVIE WITH KIM BUM & KIM SO EUN AS THE MAIN CAST! *desperate*

New post @ FtLoA

Mekakushi no Kuni

2010-10-23T00:47:00.000+07:00

I have yet to finish reading it, so I will not post the review just yet, but so far (currently reading chapter 13)... I am amazed. It gives off a very bright and colorful feeling. It is, like other manga, black and white, but somehow while reading around the second volume, I started to see how everything about it is so colorful. And it is the first time I have ever felt that way. Not to mention the words used in it, they are very touching and inspiring.

*continues reading*

Ribka's Personal Site

2010-10-21T22:35:00.000+07:00

It started with her blog... http://ribkamyway.blogspot.com/
Then a deviantart account... http://ribka17.deviantart.com/
Now, a new personal site... http://ribbon17.web.fc2.com/

Ah, is she not just a very awesome artist? I keep on telling her that, but she is not believing me. *sulk*

My Mom

2010-10-20T23:15:00.000+07:00

While watching Personal Taste on TV (with the unbearable lame dub) earlier this afternoon, my mom said something like "Aiyah, why are you watching this? Ah, I really hate it. Seeing Jun Pyo and another girl. It makes it look like Jun Pyo is cheating Jan Di. This happened with Tao Ming Tse too. I really don't like it seeing him act with another woman. Sheeshhh..."

And now she is re-watching the drama again, Boys Before Flowers. When I watched it back then, she said, "What? Why are you watching this? Lame." Hah!

My Cousin (?)

2010-10-19T23:33:00.003+07:00

Earlier this evening, my father engaged in a one-way (I did not have my webcam set up) video call with some relatives in Australia. One of them was my cousin (?), a son of my father's sister, who was half-Australian. Meaning he had this... Westerner's face (a.k.a bule). When I first saw him, wow... he was so different from the last time we met. (Mind you, I had a sucky memory) Much bulky right now. Then when my mother saw him, she got like... super excited. Like mother, like daughter. I thought we had this... interest towards Westerners. LOL.

By the way, while looking for something in my old files, I found this:

(The above file should be an animation, try all kind of tricks to get it moving, because that is why I say it is cute. Although the present box itself is cute enough! *giggle*)
PS. Try clicking the picture, it will show the animation.

Is that not the cutest thing?? I was uber surprised when I received the gift! (; I think that year was by far the best birthday I had. Well, when you have people singing you all those birthday songs a little after 00.00 and a "hand"made gift, how can you not be happy? And I still have the recording! Tee hee. If only I know how to combine those files...

HTC HTC HTC! Desire & Legend!

2010-10-16T22:06:00.000+07:00

This afternoon, a conversation came up about new phones. I texted my brother, asking what phone he was currently in love with (since he usually has awesome tastes). iPhone, HTC Desire, HTC Legend, Sony Ericsson Xperia and Samsung Galaxy. Now if only I had not read the bad reviews on Samsung's Galaxy or got bored of SE or had not seen the super awesome beautiful HTC Legend, I would not give HTC a glance. The raving reviews on both device (HTC Legend and HTC Desire) contributed even more to my desire of owning one of them. Here are the pics:

HTC Legend. The design is just... legendary.

HTC Desire. Super awesome performance.

So, which one should I beg fore? Design or performance? One thing for sure, the first time I told my parents about the price estimation, they basically showed a very negative response. LOL.

Tomorrow is my friend's, Ribka's, birthday! And I cannot stay up late tonight (I have a test to attend to tomorrow, sad) to wish her birthday on 00.00. D: I hope I remember wishing her a happy birthday in the morning. I tend to forget my friends' birthdays on the day they celebrate 'em. *sweat*

Dreams & Ruined Eating Schedule

2010-10-15T15:45:00.001+07:00

(This post should have been made yesterday, but… err…)

Yesterday, early in the morning, I was about to sleep (it was around one thirty in the morning). While I was hovering between the line of being awake and asleep, suddenly, there was this vivid imagination playing in my mind. It started with a big explosion, like a magnificent explosion caused by a detonator.

(something like that, but the color was blue)

Then I kind of woke up, only with my whole body numb. I tried to cross the awake line to sleep, but… suddenly I was holding three incense sticks. In a praying pose, but stupidly I did not (well, my hands did not want to) let go of the incense sticks even when they were burning to the end already. So it burnt… me. Strangely, I did not feel the burn, what I felt was the pain of my prickled finger. I was awake by then.

I think the stress has got me, you know? The stress of doing nothing. Haha.

And my eating habit. Two nights ago I skipped dinner. And I rarely eat breakfast anymore, because I always wake up late… No wonder people told me I got thinner.

Lunch Out

2010-10-13T23:37:00.000+07:00

... with my friend, Phoebe, to my old school! *sigh* Old school... *sigh*

She told me she missed me,
she told me I got taller,
she told me she was so jealous that I got taller,
Ooooh I love that meeting! (;

And just now she said something that made me totally happy! Best of luck for her!

By the way, tonight my mom made me drank a pineapple x carrot juice. That was kind of nauseating, the taste, that is (bearable, though). But I knew that that was good for the eyes, so I drank it slowly till it was no more.

Ooohh, and there was something that happened when I watched BBF (Boys Before Flowers) last night. So, I was texting with a friend of mine and for some reason, we got to the point where we teased each other. She started first, mind you. Then, I got to the last part of the last episodes in the fourth disc, THE part where the movie was telling about Ji Yung, then it lagged. I told her about it and she said something like, "That's karma! You have to praise me!" (She had been praising herself and I kept on being sarcastic to her self-praises), so I did it, praised her, I mean. Then today, when I just finished watching the whole five DVDs, I played that part again and it miraculously worked. I should praise her more often.

Boys Before Flowers

2010-10-13T16:44:00.000+07:00

Yes, it is THAT Korean drama. The one which gets crazier as the episodes go by...

Before I get to the review, let me tell you that I, (I am using the phrase again) as the episodes go by, like the main characters (Gu Jun Pyo || Lee Min Ho & Geum Jan Di || I do not know the actress's name) less and less, and I start to root for So Yi Jung (?) || Kim Bum & Chu Ga Eul || So Eun (?) couple, so the review is so biased. Very. Since I get bored looking at the main characters love story and want more of the Yi Jung x Ga Eul.

Title: Kgotboda Namja / Boys Before Flowers / Boys Over Flowers (꽃보다 남자)
Length: 25 episodes
Status: Complete

Jan Di is an average girl whose family owns a dry cleaning store located near the luxurious and well known Shin Hwa College. Jan Di meets the four richest and most spoiled boys known as the F4. After saving a boy from jumping off the roof of Shinhwa High School, she is admitted into the school on a swimming scholarship. Jan Di tries to avoid confrontation with the F4 at all cost because she knows what happens to those that stand against them. However, when Jan Di's friend, Oh Min Ji, accidentally gets ice cream on the leader of the F4's shoes, she's forced to declare war on the leader of the F4, Goo Joon Pyo. What will happen though, when she falls in love with someone from the F4 and Goo Joon Pyo start feeling something for her too? Will the love triangle disrupt F4 and change their lives forever? [taken from wiki.d-addicts]

HAHAHAHA I forgot everything I wanted to say. Anyway, I did not fully enjoy the drama, so I cannot say I recommend it. Okay, so... err... um...

#1) Too jumpy. I am talking about the scenes. You are here this one time and the next second you are at a completely different place and time. It is normal, but... the scene transitions confusion gets worse (using it again) as the episodes go by. Sometimes I cannot even differentiate which one is real and which one is the imagination of the characters. It just gets confusing sometimes... (Or maybe it is me being super lame.)
#2) I think they do telepathy. For example, that scene where the Yi Jung who starts becoming crazy gets drunk then all of a sudden, Woo Bin (?) and his henchmen came in to kick the hell out of those stupid guys who broke MY Yi Jung's hand!
#3) Yi Jung & Ji Hoo's personal lives are discussed too little. Would be better if you did not include them AT ALL. Just when I get curious about them, then the movie will spend minutes / hours to see what Jan Di or Jun Pyo are doing. Sheesh. It is much better about Ji Hoo (he gets the spotlight often, anyway), but my Yi Jung baby! D:
#4) Woo Bin only gets a few minutes to tell about how wrecked his personal life is then he rarely has any other uses. WTH?
#5) You see, every time they shoot the four of them being together, the only problem they talk about seems to be Jun Pyo's problems. Do they love Jun Pyo THAT much or is it that Jun Pyo just does not care about what happens to the others? Che, the only thing Ji Yung x Ga Eul problem ever shot was when Ji Hoo phoned Ga Eul err... THAT DOES NOT EVEN HAVE ANY SIGNIFICANCE!
#6) Jan Di, when Ga Eul went on a fake date with Yi Jung, you are worried to death then the next day, you act as if NOTHING happened. I mean, it it were me and I were so worried that my friend would get broken-heart-ed because of that playboy Yi Jung, the next day I would DEFINITELY ask her about it, but you? And I thought I am bad at treating my friends.
#7) Ga Eul ya! *sigh* That b****** (I cannot believe I just said that my baby Kim Bum is a b******, do I even need to censor that?) Yi Jung just broke your heart the day before then the next day you acted as if nothing happened? Wow, you have a super great self-control.

ARGH, thinking about all those things piss me off so badly. Point is, that movie is too illogical. Aside from the already impossible storyline... *I forgot what I wanted to say* err... Aish, whatever. It gets really boring when it is about to end, so I rely on my baby Kim Bum to keep me watching.

HAHAHA, by the way, before watching the drama, I had always thought that Kim Bum looked... unmanly. I mean, his face looked childish and stuffs. After watching the drama, I am in love.

And because of the drama, I want to learn Korean. And I get this point that "do not marry a too rich guy, he might just be insane".

My Sister

2010-10-10T22:46:00.000+07:00

(Ah, I think I love her too much. See the amount of posts about her in the blog.)

She lost my phone. My first clam-shell phone. The phone I did not sell even after buying a new one. The phone I used to bring EVERYWHERE, even after having a new one. My phone...

Hope you are getting a new owner who cares about you no matter how broken and tattered your appearance is. My love be with you.

Mom, this is a perfect time to buy me a new phone. My sister can use my current one. *pleading eyes*

Notice the Change?

2010-10-05T23:42:00.000+07:00

Finally I got a picture worthy of showing off! (: *twirls around* And tweaked the sidebar layout a bit.

(and I don't know what else to say...)

OH! I just got new songs from @beebeezzt! YAY! :D Totally love almost all of the songs she gave me! Although the music in the "Secrets" song by One Republic reminds me of one of Regina Spektor's songs. Which reminds me that I should download her albums...

(err...)

I got this item I had been drooling over in GaiaOnline from someone! She is so nice... D: (I think she's a she...) I am so happy! And shocked, lol. When I got the trade request, I got like... "Huh?" *blinks eyes, sees again* "Oh... my... God..." and my eyes got like: o.o, well, they are quite big to start with...

And I got another session of my pastry-making class today! (: I totally love today's class. I love all the people there, they are so nice! Which reminds me (I have been saying "reminds me" for three time already) I got hurt during the class! D: And when one of the teachers found out that I was bleeding (mind you, it was just a point of blood, even I did not freak out at that time, and it was me, the master of overreacting) he got like, "OMG, what happened to you?" *quickly went to where the first aid kit was located then pour some Betadine over my wound then band-aided it* HAHAHA, I felt like laughing when he acted like that. But thanks a lot, Mr Teacher! (Out of the three teachers, his name is the only one I cannot seem to recall. So sorry!) The reason behind it? Even I do not know. o_o I just finished washing my hands when I brushed my hands onto my apron (to dry it) then I felt something sharp. By the time I looked at my hands, it was bleeding, kinda non-stop.

To sum it up, today IS a good day. (: Too bad the patisserie classes are about to end after about eight more meetings. T_T *sigh*

OH OH OH! Did I tell you I met someone who also want to go to Japan next year? And she is a very nice girl! (:

Short Story

2010-10-05T02:00:00.003+07:00

Woohoo! For the last few days, I had these words in my mind about the rain which I could not dismiss. Since I have yet to feel depressed that I can use the words to write an entry, I finally decided to write a short story.

Now, I feel relieved.

Title: (no idea)

Author: Nicole N

Words: 1,147

The humid scent of air trickled my nose. The sky had just stopped pouring its tears and all that was left were little drops of water dripping as the aftermath. I looked up the sky and admired its beauty. The look the sky put after a rain session was always too beautiful, as if trying to look its best after pouring everything out. I made sure I looked as far as I could, in hope to find the spectrum of colors at the sky. Nothing. Was it that the sky, even after crying its heart out, still could not find the glimmer of hope? Or was it because the thickness of the impurities had taken its toll?

I sighed and continued to walk.

I thought it was because of the season. It had to be what they called by SAD, the Seasonal Affective Disorder. But then, should they not be in the winter? This was not winter, never would have any winter in this country. Well, unless, the above power decided that the country needed a little cold.

If it were not the SAD, then what could it be? A suggestion arose, but as soon as the thought reached my conscience, I dismissed it. Could not be that. I had long buried the memory.

As I forced my feet to ascend the uphill road, the glimmer of that particular object caught my sight. I stopped then stared at it. Tears swelled in my eyes and it took everything in me to prevent it from pouring down. I let my body fall at the nearby bench and looked up. After making sure that the tears would not flow down my cheeks, I let myself heave another sigh. I stood back up and continued the walk.

Each time I drew my steps, it got heavier. I felt like forcing myself to turn back and forgot this ridiculous idea, but my feet would not listen to me. They never did, since that incident. I kept on arriving in places I resented. For years, the same thing happened almost every day. I got tired. Therefore, I decided to stop resisting, praying that the misery would finally end.

So here I was, walking along this memorable road, the unchanging sceneries.

I went inside the bakery. The one we visited together every morning for all those years. The one carpet we stepped on each time. The one wallpaper we saw all those mornings. The unchanging smell all over the years. They were all the same, yet it felt so different. I went to the cashier to pay for our usual breakfast. Although I knew that there were no more ‘our’, only ‘me’. As they said, “Old habits die hard.”

While on the way to my next destination, I finished everything inside the paper bag then threw it to the nearest trash bin. Someday, I was going to regret this unhealthy dose of breakfast.

The next stop was the old bookstore he loved so much. Heck, I did not even like books. Just the sight of them made my stomach turned all queasy. Still, I went inside and the familiar air breezed through me. The owner, who was as antique as the shop, gave me a smile, which I replied adequately. Arriving at the last row of the towering shelves, I let my hands trailed through the books he loved so much, he told me about them again and again. The image of his passionate face while explaining to me the wonder of those books flashed through my mind. I never understood what he talked about, but looking at him so enthusiastic was enough reason for me to smile. Giving the owner a little hand wave, I went outside and the cold wind gushed against my face.

I hugged myself tightly to expel the cold. He usually held my hand in his when I felt a chill. He even promised me that his hands would always be there to warm me up. Then again, he never kept his promises.

Taking the stroll further, I reached the glass-walled little music shop. Posters of the newest releases were pasted on the glass, leaving little space for me to peek through. I went inside and bought myself a compilation of some piano music. With the plastic bag in my hand, I went out of the place. Now, why did I buy this CD again? It was never my favorite. Piano, that is. I prefer listening to new songs, rather than these… outdated things. I could never understand what he liked so much about them. I always fell asleep in the middle of the first music whenever he played it at home; causing him to sulk for the rest of the day by the time I woke up. It usually only took a kiss to brighten his mood, but then, he looked so adorable when he was sulking that I liked leaving him that way.

I smiled widely at the thought of his sulking face. Then the image of his reddening cheek whenever I kissed him sent giggle to my mouth. By now, some pedestrians who walked near me turned their heads to see who was laughing and if possible, the reason behind it. But, of course, with the reason existing only in my mind, no matter how hard they looked, they would never find it, unless they read minds, which was a little bit impossible. The thought of people reading minds made me laugh, but I succeeded in muffling it, producing only tiny sounds.

By the time I tried to figure out where I was, there he was, smiling at me as if nothing happened. The sight of his carefree smile sent the tears I held back all those times came streaming down the corner of my eyes. At first it was just a silent cry, then my voice grew louder and louder. My knees gave out and I kneeled in front of the mound. I wept and wailed. Even on the day he went away, I was not in this much mess.

I thought it was hours when I finally ran out of tears to cry and voice to wail. I brushed my eyes against my sleeve roughly and stared again at the picture, mixed feelings inside my heart. Once, someone said to me, “It is much better losing your loved one to death rather than seeing him with another woman.” I used to agree with whoever said that, but now, seeing him with another woman would be better than this. At least I could still see him. Now, I could only rely on pictures.

I wanted to cry even more, but something caught my eyes. I cast my glance at the sky.

And there it was, shining so proudly, different colors clashing into one.

I smiled, earnestly.

I would be fine.

Everything would be fine.

My Sister

2010-10-03T08:36:00.001+07:00

… just told me, “Dasar egois, goblok, bego, mending gak usa idup aja,” which means ‘selfish, stupid, stupid, it would be better if you are not born in the first place’ or something like that. Poor sister, she does not know what she is talking about.

Well, it is not fair if I just tell the story from the middle part, right? So, let us start from where it all started.

It was that time, when we finally got our long-wanted nDS after all the hardship. Then that stupid girl stupidly played the thing when it was time for her to sleep. My Dad, who was not really giving the permission to buy it (we were with mom when we bought it), got so angry that he finally locked it away. The same thing he did to my brother’s Gameboy when he was small, which explains the lack of gaming consoles in our household. So, about months or a year after the confiscation took place, it was around the time of my national examinations or after, I asked my Dad, jokingly, where the DS was held. He did not answer, so after a few days, I asked my Mom when my Dad was in the room, where was the DS. And voila, I got the location. You know, I opened that cupboard millions of time without realizing that the DS was there. *sigh* Sick heart. Anyway, after I was done with school and had TOO MUCH time to spare, I started playing the DS again, usually when my sister was away. A few days ago, my Mom said, “Aiyoohh, you’re so unfair. Only playing it while your sis is not home,” jokingly. So, I got the impression, ‘Oh, that means I can just play it in front of her. Good, because I want to finish that one game and apparently I need more time.’ Last night, I did not quickly put it in when I heard her footsteps. She started saying, “Oh, where did you find that? Good job!” Me inside my mind at that time, ‘Good job, your ass. You were the CAUSE of the whole confiscating-incident.’ When she asked me where I found it, though, I ignored her.

Then this morning, while I was half-asleep, she barged into the room and asked. HELLO, I WAS HALF-ASLEEP! So I pretended that I was still sleeping. Of course, to keep up with my act, I cannot (not that I want to) answer her question as to the whereabouts of the DS. Logically a sleeping person does not talk, unless he / she is sleep-talking or something. She was pissed off, so came the magic words above. When I was brushing my teeth, though, she came up at me and said, trying to look innocent, where the DS is (again), so I finally told her to ask mom.

That is the story. Too bad it does not end with ‘happily ever after’. Mind you, that is not the first time she said rude words to me. “Brengsek”, “k****t” (wow, even I have only used the word twice because that is just too rude), and more along the line. I kept quiet, though, because I thought, ‘She is young and foolish.’ Not that it is the first time she told me to ‘go die’ or things like that. But I have reached my limit. Like everyone else, I have my limit, my friend.

#1) Selfish :: Ooohh, I am, my sister. You might not know this but others have pointed it out to me. And I am being called this by a brat like you. Someone who CURSE people when they are ‘SLEEPING’? Wow, way to go. I think I should buy you a BIG mirror for your upcoming birthday.

#2) Stupid :: This I should laugh. Excuse me, see those trophies? Now tell me how I could get those if I WERE stupid.

#3) If I were not born :: It would not guarantee that you were born. You would not get to read all the books and mangas collection I had. You would not even know the existence of DS or the persistence that finally made you get one. Even if you still get the DS, you might not know that you can DOWNLOAD the games online, might still buy them for a fee like my cousins. Heck, you would not even get the chance to watch movies in the cinema, because… Look at your beloved brother (sorry, bro!), had he ever take you to the cinema? If it was not because of me, would mom and dad even watched movie in the cinema? You might just get a DVD-watching childhood like me.

So, think. Before you talk, you… a**hole. I am so telling this to my Mom. I am FED UP. Cheeky brat.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2010-10-01T23:00:00.001+07:00

... to my dearly beloved best friend, ex-seatmate, @adieyodla!

May this year be another year of happiness and excitement. May your current place of residence bring upon you fun, new friends, new experiences, knowledge, love and all the best things in life. May the many more days and months and years to come bless you with wisdom. *losing words to say*

Whatever with the past has gone,
The best is always yet to come.
- Lucy Larcom.

(Her birthday is on October 1, and I know the day almost end, has ended in Australia, but I still want to post this post.)

Yesterday

2010-10-01T23:00:00.000+07:00

(As stated in the title, I should have posted this yesterday, but it is all because of that manhwa, which turns out to have a sucky ending, that I ended up not posting a post and not doing my job from my dad.)

I am going to go into details on what I did yesterday, so excuse some unimportant points. Tee hee.

The day started before the clock reached 6.00. I was so amazed at myself that I managed to wake up so early. Finally! After such long time waking up late. I had to hurry because my sister was going to school that day and my parents had to take her to school and I wanted to go with my parents, err… that should explain my circumstances. I quickly took shower then applied my usual face toner, moisturizer and such. After finishing the skin care routine (although I was too lazy to apply the anti-UV body lotion), my mother was still in the bathroom, so I tried to quickly applied some make-up. Well, I just put on some moist water eye color (that is the product name, it is a kind of transparent-and-glossy eye shadow), mascara and blush. Right after I finished, I heard my mother’s footsteps and quickly put them all back to where they belonged. I smiled and looked innocently at my mom when she asked, “Are you done? You should put on those… make-ups while there is still time.” Me inside my mind, “OMG, mommy! How do you know I wanted to put on make-up?! Do you have Edward Cullen’s power or something?” I only said, “Aiyaahhh…” Mommy is a mind-reader. Scary.

We then went to school. My mom and I went to the canteen in the basement while my sister went to the upper floor where the elevator was located. I bought my breakfast at the school canteen because the place where my parents wanted to eat at was not up to my taste. On the way to the parking lot, I met a friend of mine! So happy! (: We then went to have breakfast, my parents and their beloved noodles, me and my beloved… kwetiao (how is that said in English?). After breakfast, we went to this… person who gave drawing lessons (@amiraparamitha recommendation) and my parents talked to the teacher. It took more than one hour. o_o And the highway was so… crowded. There was a kind of accident, so we got caught in traffic jam for quite some time. After we finally reached my dad’s office, I asked the driver to drive me to the nearest bus station.

Yesterday was my first experience riding the bus alone. The first time I tried riding the bus was with my mother. I bought the card then waited for the bus to come. During the waiting time, I was nervous. So nervous. I was so scared that I would end up… lost. Although I knew that was impossible. I knew which station I should go down at and stuffs. There was a mix of both anxiety and excitement to the new experience. Nevertheless, the excitement won, of course. It was a pleasant experience, except for the quite long waiting time at the station and the lack of air-conditioning or even a fan.

Arriving at the designated station, I was greeted by a friend of mine, @stevanusps. Well, since the whole point of the traveling was because of his invite to sit in one of his favorite lecturer’s lecture. He gave me a brief tour to his university then we went inside the class. Upon entering the room, it felt like everyone’s eyes peered through me. (I am not sure I am using the right preposition.) Scared the hell out of me, mind you. We sat at the second row, I was on the third column from the right. I got introduced to someone who looked very nice and kind of timid. Her name was… Christine, if I did not misremember. (Name spelling is subject to mistake – not sure if I use the right expression.) The whole time while I was watching @stevanusps & Christine’s interaction, I was thinking, “Interesting. It MUST lead to a gossip.” Anyway, back to the main topic, before the lecturer came, he gave me a brief introduction to this thing called “economy". It took quite a while (and late from the schedule) for the lecturer to come. When he finally came…

My opinion to the lecture: It was too bad that I did not seem to have interest in this thing called “economy” although I had to say that if I did, the teacher would be one of my favorites. I loved teachers / lecturers / speakers who not only talked about the subject based on the text, but also added some of his / her experience to spice up the topic and increase the understanding of the topic itself. I just did not like how he kept on bringing his experience in the Netherlands too much. It made it look like that that was the only experience he got, the one time in the world’s legal capital. He freaked me out when he started talking about the immense amount of flowers in Holland. I was seriously scared. Despite that, he managed to make me quite understand the subject he delivered that day, which was in ‘Externalities’. It took time for me to understand what he meant with all the acronyms he used. Good thing my friend had briefed me before the lecture. Else, I would be… clueless.

After the lecture, @stevanusps and I went to the McDonalds to eat. After that, I used the busway once more! Oooohh, I really enjoyed riding the bus. This time I went to fX (my first time), where my parents were at that time. Getting down at the said station, I asked the attendant which way was to fX then followed the instruction. The walk was enjoyable.

I met my parents, waited till they were done with their business, then begged them to let me ride the Atmosfear (I kind of forgotten the name). My dad said, “Go do it when you’re with your friends.” I got like, “Noooooo…” Until now I still somehow regretted not trying that one out. D: Also, at that time, there was the anatomy exhibition. Bad thing we had to pay to get in. *sigh* And my dad said the same thing. T_T

The previous paragraph = I can go out as long as the place is reachable by busway! Woohoo! Nice. :D

At night, I went to my favorite class at my English tuition. The whole class was pretty fun, but there was this guy. He was very sadistic. He talked about dissecting animals while laughing. D: Mr / Mrs / Ms Froggies, Chickies and Fishies, may your deaths bring upon enlightening of knowledge to the students.

PS: No re-checking of grammar / usage of words done.

Wicked Lovely

2010-09-25T00:32:00.001+07:00

I just finished re-reading it! o_o Well, I only paid more attention to the romantic scenes and fast-forwarded the rest. Took me four hours, and explains why I am still awake currently.

And I have started begging my dad to take me to the Times Bookstore, the one so far from my house, but the most beautiful bookstore I have ever seen. So comfortable, and lots of books! I will have to check whether they have the books I want or no, though. If they do not, I will just go to the nearer one and cheaper.

I need to sleep… I have a ruined idea of beauty sleep.

Irony, Irony...

2010-09-23T23:11:00.000+07:00

This is the third post in the day... But I just remembered something I originally wanted to post.

This is a conversation between me and my mom in the car, when we were on the way to my English tuition:
(Okay, I am too lazy to translate the conversation to English, so...)
Mom: Lu kenapa sih, ke, tidur malem-malem?
Me: Yah, abis temennya online-nya malem-malem.
Mom: Ya ngapain ikut-ikutan...
Me: Kan I need social life.
Mom: Social life ya keluar dong! Bukan di rumah...

Before this one occurred:
Mom: Temen-temen lu gak ganti harinya kan pas tau lu gak bisa hari Jumat? (about going to a mall with my friends)
Me: Ya enggak lah... Mereka kan sekalian kuliah. Saturday ya gak kuliah dong.
Mom: Tuh kan, mereka aja sekalian. Jadi lu kalo gak lagi sekalian ke Gading ya bla bla bla...

Is that not so much of an irony? Telling me to go out then saying that going is kinda impossible. Impossible because MY FAMILY usually stays within my living area, which is far from The Tusk. And my friends live around The Tusk. Che. I was so pissed off.

the little awkward steps

MOVED

OH GOD, I CAN'T BELIEVE I DID THAT.

Departure Date

Random Updates + PICTURES!

Japanese Language Proficiency Test (JLPT)

English Class (Ranting Alert)

Packing Issue Finished

Packing

I Can't Believe It!

Thailand Movie, Oh My God, I LOVE YOU!

I Actually Don't Know What to Post,

Drawing, Drawing, Drawing...

Drawing Class

Japanese Lessons

Baking Class

Some New Pictures

I INSTALLED THE SIMS 3

THE DILEMMA IS OVER

Laptop, Laptop, Why are You so Hard to Choose?

My Heart is Pounding

Kare Kano & Mekakushi no Kuni

WOOHOO! HAPPY DAY!

I CAN'T FIND THE SHOES I WANT, BUT I CUT MY HAIR!

Ice Skating & More Ranting

WOW, I just realized I did not write anything for 23 days and now it's my BIRTHDAY! (:

2011: Year-Start Resolution

2010: Year-End Conclusion

Early Announcement

MISS ME, MISS ME, MISS ME?

Traditional Books VS E-Books

Fragile Eternity

Substitute Teacher

Zombies / Mutants VS Heroes

My Friend

Lux-Pain

Contact Lens

Oh, How I Miss Not Doing Anything!

Dreadful Weekend

FINALLY! A Back-Up Plan!

More French (I know, I don't have other things to do, BEAR WITH ME!)

THE Weekend

TGIF!

France

Lots of Things

Onrop! Musical Review

Mom's Birthday Part II

Mom’s Birthday

Happy!

Onrop! Musical

Night Out

Meeting with Friends

Moi Day

Just Read

Friend's News

City Hall

The Day Has Yet to End,

Phoebe's Self-Made Video

The Future

Disasters, Disasters…

The Envelope

Step Up 3

More… Dreams…

Grandpa

Happy Morning

French Twist

This Morning

Err, Sorry for the... Posts

*blog abuse*

SoEul

Mekakushi no Kuni

Ribka's Personal Site

My Mom

My Cousin (?)

HTC HTC HTC! Desire & Legend!

Dreams & Ruined Eating Schedule

Lunch Out

Boys Before Flowers

My Sister

Notice the Change?

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